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Thursday, December 15, 2011
Today was a good day. I am back on track and taking no crap! Back to being careful with my food intake! Some things really help.
1) Keeping a lot of food in the house. This makes me eat more veggies because I don't want them to spoil. It keeps me from feeling deprived because I have lots of choices, and it keeps me from making last-minute food choices based on cravings.
2) Eating food with lots of flavour, so I feel full and satisfied.
3) Eating food with a high water content. This reminds me of my friend JITZUROE's blog about eating food that 'piddles' on her plate. I read a Spark article that said while drinking water is important, eating food with water in it will really fill you up…. Exciting, no? I feel so good when I eat a lot of soups and salads and fresh fruits and veggies.
4) Having low-calorie treats. Again, if I'm not feeling deprived, I'll stick to the plan.
5) Tracking my food often through the day, not just one time at the end of the day. If I leave it too long, I forget things. It might just be a cup of cottage cheese and some raspberries, but it's still a few hundred calories
6) Keeping my eyes on the prize! It's so easy to lose motivation, especially when you've been sparking for a while and it's lost its newness! I have two time-specific goals that are keeping me super-duper inspired.
a) I will be smoking hot by next Halloween. I've always wanted to wear one of those semi-slutty costumes that so many girls wear. Next Halloween, I want to dress as Wonder Woman or something equally rad. Maybe not Wonder Woman, because that costume would be chilly -- and, really, too revealing for me. I say I want to dress slutty, but I'm actually a bit of a prude! But I want a sexy costume, dang it! Hot by Halloween!!!!! It's a good goal.
b) I will lose 25 pounds by my birthday in May. This one is scary, because it's so specific and will require a real commitment. But when I really focus, I tend to lose about 6 pounds a month. I did it when I went from 280 to 240 a couple of years ago -- 40 pounds in six months. Then I gained back ten pounds over a year and a half.
Then I went from 250 to 215 -- 35 pounds in five months. So now I have confessed my weight, something that is really scary but also somewhat liberating. I'm a really private person. There is no one in my life, dear Spark friends, who knows these numbers. (In case you are interested, I am 5'7" and a size 16. Now you know.)
When I lose 25 pounds I will no longer have an 'obese' BMI. So basically, what I want for my birthday is an 'overweight' BMI!
I'm not sure I can post this. The thought makes me a little queasy. But I want to blog more, because it really helps to let it out. I held back because I felt like my blogs needed to be interesting or upbeat or something. But that's just crap. Even though other people can read what I write, and I value the comments and sympathy and the compassion and understanding, these blogs are ultimately about searching my soul and expressing my truth. So I'll just lay it on the line and put it out there, embarrassed and quivering with fear though I may be.