Not Running At Full Capacity
Sunday, December 11, 2011
I decided to try and do intuitive eating... which was working out alright for me. Perhaps still is. The thing is that apparently logging my food is basic function for me that my other efforts and successes stem from. Since I started not logging my food, I've also stopped tracking my workouts. This means that I've lost my exercise streak. And I really don't know how many minutes I'm at. Which I think bleeds into scheduling my workouts. I have been working out, but only like 3 times per week whereas before I was doing 5-6 times per week. Granted this could be the result of it being a super busy time of year, and it's now really cold outside, and I've been feeling under the weather - my stress has left me susceptible to colds and headaches. I am sitting here feeling like I'm on the very verge of a slippery slope though. I'm not putting 100% forth right now - I recognize this. And since logging isn't a priority I think that somewhere in my brain it's easing up on the priority of the whole package. This is scary. I've been here before. I've ignored what I knew, I've slipped. Ignorance is bliss. Not anymore!!! I've come too damn far, and worked too hard to just let this slip away now. I am in control. My decisions are my direction. I choose to be committed. I choose to be here. I choose fitness. I choose health. I choose ME! I am awake in my life, and I am again shutting down 'auto-pilot'. It's Sunday. My plan was to not weigh-in until my birthday, the 20th. So I'm going to stick to that. But I am going back to logging food and exercise - it's just what seems to work for me. For now. I am not ready to let go of that yet, especially at such a busy and tempting time of year. I am stronger than I was. And I will be stronger yet.