Update! I know it's been awhile...
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Oh, my friends, how I've missed you. I've been around...slightly. I've logged in and tracked my calories and spun the wheel. But I lost my Spark briefly, and did not really talk to anyone for awhile.
So my best friend moved to Florida, and there is no cell coverage where she is (at a Primate Sanctuary) I've been kind of bummed so I drew myself inward. I don't want to jump on the word "depressed" because I've been that and this didn't feel that bad. Just...blah. My weight stuck in the same place for like 2 weeks and that didn't help either.
I was lying in bed the other night and my husband put his arm around me. Then he poked me, right in the ribs. I said "Ow! what was that for?" All he said was "Bones" and he kept poking me. On the hip, the ribs, the arm. "Bones!" he says. I don't know what is wrong with him because most the other guys I know would be so excited if their wife lost over 40 pounds. I can't get him to touch me with a 10 foot pole. I know...overshare. But I have to share with someone, and like i said...best friend...Florida. BLECH! Then today he says "Just don't go all Karen Carpenter on me." Really?!? I eat 6 times a day! I just laughed it off, but inside I felt like saying, "shut your damn face!" and choking him out. It's really not fair that he is making me feel all insecure about this now.
I mean, do I stop working out or losing weight because maybe he is insecure? Wouldn't gaining weight for someone be just as bad as losing weight for anyone but yourself?
Not too much else is going on, but I'm planning a big blog for when I get to my goal weight which is 2 pounds away. Wish me luck!