does 177 even exist? lol
Saturday, December 03, 2011
for the past month or so I've been unable to pass 178lbs. I keep on adding and dropping the same 1lb, but unable to pass 178 lbs mark. this is a deja vu for me, in the past the lowest I was able to drop down to was 178lbs and bouncing back up, with the difference this time I've been maintaining the ~178lbs almost a month.
I am starting to think that it is not so much a plateau, as a mental block at this point. At times I do feel overwhelmed with what I have accomplished so far, and feel a bit anxious thinking of getting to 170lbs, or getting further down. currently what I want to accomplish is to get out of the obese category, which means to get down to 163lbs (BMI 29.9) but I am trying to figure out why am I holding so dearly to the obese cushion, why do I need this and for what protection, why is this important for my emotional being to keep this "fluff" around myself?
in the meantime I am grateful to loose 37 lbs so far, to b able to wear size 12, to b physically capable of doing so much more than back in July, to have way more positive outlook on life, to b a happier person.