Do I want to Find him Dead?
Friday, December 02, 2011
I've been largely unsuccessful at this -- and have worried sick for my partner, who is radically disinterested in taking care of himself beyond where the next twinkie is coming from. Make that CASE of twinkies.
I don't know if I can enable him any more. If he won't take any responsibility for his own actions -- and he won't -- then I have to either accept that I may find him dead in my bed any time now, or get that call from his work -- or I may have to end the relationship rather than find him that way.
I hate having to consider these possibilities, but everything I've been worried might happen IS happening.
For myself, and my daughter, the reality is that I cannot resist the bags of chips, bottles of sodas, snacks, and huge horking amounts of food that are around now. I have regained everything I lost, PLUS.
I don't want to end up in the hospital like he did. I don't want to find him dead.
This is terrible.