Friday, December 02, 2011
I am always under a lot of stress. I am a relatively healthy 61 year old female who has been with out male companionship for 16 years. Believe me, celibacy is not al it's cracked up to be ! I have lost all trust in men so I don't see one in my future. This is not how I thought my life would turn out. I am very sad most of the time. Most of my life I have been an " I " instead of a " WE ". It's just sad to be alone. I don't mean to sound like, " Poor me," it's just that this is supposed to help out with my stress level,writing this all down I mean. I have other stressors, but this is the one weighing heavy on my mind right now.I sleep a lot because my dreams far outshine my reality. The Holidays most likely have a lot to do with this.........Ahhh.... Christmas, the most wonderful time of year is often the saddest for a lot of us. Please don't get me wrong I have a lot to be thankful for and my faith is strong. I know my God will take care of me. I just wish I had made better choices in my life............Alas today is a new day !