This week started off great, until I saw my doctor on Tuesday for a preventative exam.
I sent for a thirty minute walk Sunday, and cardio kickboxing Monday. It was fun, but I hurt myself! My ex is FINALLY moving out-and out of state! I want to be excited and happy, but it's also his final exit from my life. It has really cemented the break-up for me. So, his stuff is all stacked in the living room for the big move on Sunday. I was too close to a speaker and punched it really hard when I was jabbing! Ouch! It bruised and hurt alot, but my doctor looked at it Tuesday and said it should be fine. It's still sore, though
I kid, it's not that bad!
Anyway, I have been feeling down since I broke up with my bf, so I talked to my doctor about antidepressant for a little while. I've been trying to be positive and cheer myself up, but I just can't feel better inside. We'll see how the meds do, I guess. Also, I weigh 20 pounds more now than I did last March. That's last last time I saw the doctor. I don't know about you, but that seems like a huge gain in a year and a half
I'm scared and I need to do something, because my BMI right now is Class three obesity. I had an idea that I weighed more this year, but I was trying not to think about. I had also considered the weight treatment center at the medical clinic where my doctor is, but I had considered it cheating. I mean, if other people can lose over 100 pounds on SparkPeople, why can't I? However, things are serious now. I have spent three years this overweight, getting worse. I need to lose some of this weight fast! My borderline high blood pressure (pre-hypertension, but not technically diagnosed yet) is really scaring me, too! So, I signed up for the next informational meeting for this Very Low Calorie Diet (VLCD) at the medical clinic.
The meeting isn't until this next Thursday, so I wanted to know more in the meantime. I went on the website and read all about it! I feel really good about the program. The have a team of weight treatment specialists, such as physicians, dieticians, and counselors, to advise you every step of the way. Each individual is evaluated and given a customized program, so the cost is different, but I think it would cost around $2000 dollars for three months. It sounds doable. They have meal replacement shakes formulated to induce ketosis, a stage of carb deficiency that suppresses your appetite and burns your fat stores. You do this for about one to two months then transition for four weeks to regular food. There's also six months of counseling to maintain your weight when you're done. If I can afford, I'm doing it!
That's not enough, though, I decided! I adjusted my weight loss goal to two pounds a week, so I can get to a healthy weight faster. I need to get heading in the right direction. As a SparkFriend once told me, "You cannot fail at something you have control over." I have control over this! I was feeling depressed about my lack of progress, but I had an epiphany last night. I will win! Losing weight is hard, that's why so many people don't do it! It takes effort to eat healthy in today's world, and planning and thinking about meals ahead of time. It takes work! Not only that, but the experts have figured out that it's hard for people who lose weight to keep it off! Wow, really? There's stats, but you can find those on your own on this site...Being a healthy weight is actually a huge accomplishment. Getting there and staying there is a challenge, one few people persist in achieving! Well, I am stubborn and I like to accomplish things that few people have! This is my ultimate challenge! I'm going to do, I'm going to win, because I know I CAN! I'm the little engine that could, chugging to the top. It's a challenge against myself, because most of my life I didn't care, or want to care, about how healthy I ate. Most people don't! I'm doing something in the minority, and I'm running through the finish line! This new mission: I will win!