So grateful! Healthy Thanksgiving, everyone! (UPDATE!)

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Hello my wonderful readers. I am not nearly as active with my blogging as I have been in the past, but I am still here on spark almost every day, logging my fit minutes, checking my friend feed, and lurking on team message boards. I just want to take a minute to share what is on my mind lately.

It has been 10 months since I made it to my 90-pound weight loss goal, and that is when the REAL work began!! The work of making this STICK for life. my weight crept back up from 147(all time low) to 165(bloating? who knows, but SCARY!). I am back down to 155 now, without actively "dieting". I shifted my focus from the diet mentality, which was starting to make me a little crazy, to the maintenance/lifestyle mentality. I have made MANY compromises this year; binges, eating out of boredom, in secret, and in response to my emotions. My good choices/habits won out though. That's how I know this is forever, how I know I don't have to be scared of reverting back to my old behavior. I have learned what my triggers are. After identifying them and paying attention to WHY I am eating, not so much what, I feel like I am finally starting to gain control of my compulsions.

I have remained dedicated to my yoga practice, and fitness in general. I practice Bikram yoga with great passion and commitment to healing my mind/body/spirit. I feel that this yoga has been the catalyst for the shift in my thinking. I began my practice around the same time I made it to my goal weight. Looking back and connecting the dots I realize that my lifestyle shift was all in preparation for the REAL change that was to come. First I had to shed my "security blanket." Once stripped of my fat suit, my REAL issue came to the surface. The issues that drove me to turn to food for comfort in the first place. At that point, I can see why people revert back. It is F*&%ing HARD to look at myself in the mirror and confront my personal demons. I had to FORGIVE myself for all the self-abuse that I inflicted. Finally, after almost 2 years into this lifestyle change....2 years of LOVING myself, I am starting to let go of the baggage. It is almost as hard to lug around as the 90 pounds of fat that I shed.

This yoga has truly changed my life. I would like to share it with you all and encourage you to seek out a Bikram yoga studio in your area. It is a beginner's class and it REALLY is for everyone from the super-athlete right up to ol' grandpa with a walker!! Even children!! Check it out, look for a deal, and give it a try!!! Let me know if you do. I would love to hear your impression. ;o) Here's a link that goes through all the postures/breathing exercises in the series and explains the health benefits associated with each one. One of my very favorite teachers always says, "Work like science, feels like magic." That about sums it up.

Here's me in an advanced posture called Full Camel. I have been working on this for 2 months, after many months of my regular practice. I am very excited about being able to go this far and can't wait to post progress pictures as my posture improves. The goal in this one is face between the feet, or ultimately the calves! CRAZAY!

This morning I got up and participated in our local Turkey Trot for the second year in row. I did the 10K last year. This year, due to my lack of training, I just did the 5K. I am glad to find that, although I rarely run, yoga has primed my body so that I can go run 3 miles in a respectable time of 27 minutes. It was a little hard to find my breathing at first, and I felt like I was slow, but I kept a 9-min/mile pace the entire way! I wonder how I could have done if I had prepared for it!
Hubby opted out this year, so I ran with a yoga friend and her son:

2011 has been a great year full of blessings. It has also been peppered with numerous PAINFUL opportunities for growth. I took and continue to take each opportunity as it arises. I will no longer back down when faced with one of these opportunities. I emrace ALL opportunity to deepen my connections with other people as well as taking charge of my own fate. I am POWERFUL, and so are you!

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday. And a wonderful holiday season! I am focused on health, family, friends. Shifting the focus off of the food this holiday season. It's not about what's to eat.

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    Sorry, Fruitycherry, that last blog comment came from me, Career_Girl--the computer was signed into my Mom's account! Duh! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2283 days ago
    Hi! This is a really great job here. Inspiration to give Bikram's a chance. I did yoga when I was younger but when I went back in my late thirties I couldn't even cross my legs and felt self-conscious as by far the largest in the class in a Y in a hip neighborhood that catered to hipster young folk. Your journey of weightloss and maintenance is clearly spelled out here to be exemplary to your readers. Very inspirational!
    2283 days ago
    I am so proud of you my friend. You have worked wonders to change your life for the better. It's important to be kind to yourself as you make these life changes. Remember it's much easier to put the weight on and give in to the emotions than it is to to take it off and work through the crap. I've learned that beating ourselves up is just another emotional stalling tactic used to avoid just doing what we need to. Hugs!
    2906 days ago
    That full camel is a think of beauty. Look how awesome you look doing it! Strong! Healthy! Powerful! Slender!

    Rock star. Rockstar. Youareayogaweightlossrockstar.
    2936 days ago
    You are always so encouraging!!
    2942 days ago
  • FABAT402009
    So happy you checked in. My sister is currently doing Bikram Yoga and she also talks about the mental healing she receives from it. Thank you for continuing to share your journey and I wish you continued success.
    2975 days ago
    Thanks for your thoughts and wisdom.

    Have you moved into advanced classes...I keep thinking about it. Some days, (like today), I think, I could go for another 90 mins...and other days, I'm sure I can't! I'd love to hear more about your Bikram Yoga journey.

    Debbie Jo
    2977 days ago
    emoticon Great blog!!! I think it's amazing how much we can learn from other sparkers. I have been struggling recently with counting calories and have noticed a shift in the scales emoticon It's an inspiration to read your blog...I might take a break from running and try some yoga...try to change my routine a bit...thanks for the motivation today! emoticon
    2978 days ago
    You are such an inspiration! Thank you for sharing, and by the way that pose is spectacular already :)
    2978 days ago
    Inspirational! emoticon
    2978 days ago
    Great Blog. Going to check out the Bikram,thanks. emoticon
    2979 days ago
  • KARENA228
    Beautiful words to read. I hope I can say the same thing some day.
    2982 days ago
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