Hello my wonderful readers. I am not nearly as active with my blogging as I have been in the past, but I am still here on spark almost every day, logging my fit minutes, checking my friend feed, and lurking on team message boards. I just want to take a minute to share what is on my mind lately.
It has been 10 months since I made it to my 90-pound weight loss goal, and that is when the REAL work began!! The work of making this STICK for life. my weight crept back up from 147(all time low) to 165(bloating? who knows, but SCARY!). I am back down to 155 now, without actively "dieting". I shifted my focus from the diet mentality, which was starting to make me a little crazy, to the maintenance/lifestyle mentality. I have made MANY compromises this year; binges, eating out of boredom, in secret, and in response to my emotions. My good choices/habits won out though. That's how I know this is forever, how I know I don't have to be scared of reverting back to my old behavior. I have learned what my triggers are. After identifying them and paying attention to WHY I am eating, not so much what, I feel like I am finally starting to gain control of my compulsions.
I have remained dedicated to my yoga practice, and fitness in general. I practice Bikram yoga with great passion and commitment to healing my mind/body/spirit. I feel that this yoga has been the catalyst for the shift in my thinking. I began my practice around the same time I made it to my goal weight. Looking back and connecting the dots I realize that my lifestyle shift was all in preparation for the REAL change that was to come. First I had to shed my "security blanket." Once stripped of my fat suit, my REAL issue came to the surface. The issues that drove me to turn to food for comfort in the first place. At that point, I can see why people revert back. It is F*&%ing HARD to look at myself in the mirror and confront my personal demons. I had to FORGIVE myself for all the self-abuse that I inflicted. Finally, after almost 2 years into this lifestyle change....2 years of LOVING myself, I am starting to let go of the baggage. It is almost as hard to lug around as the 90 pounds of fat that I shed.
This yoga has truly changed my life. I would like to share it with you all and encourage you to seek out a Bikram yoga studio in your area. It is a beginner's class and it REALLY is for everyone from the super-athlete right up to ol' grandpa with a walker!! Even children!! Check it out, look for a deal, and give it a try!!! Let me know if you do. I would love to hear your impression. ;o) Here's a link that goes through all the postures/breathing exercises in the series and explains the health benefits associated with each one. One of my very favorite teachers always says, "Work like science, feels like magic." That about sums it up.
Here's me in an advanced posture called Full Camel. I have been working on this for 2 months, after many months of my regular practice. I am very excited about being able to go this far and can't wait to post progress pictures as my posture improves. The goal in this one is face between the feet, or ultimately the calves! CRAZAY!
This morning I got up and participated in our local Turkey Trot for the second year in row. I did the 10K last year. This year, due to my lack of training, I just did the 5K. I am glad to find that, although I rarely run, yoga has primed my body so that I can go run 3 miles in a respectable time of 27 minutes. It was a little hard to find my breathing at first, and I felt like I was slow, but I kept a 9-min/mile pace the entire way! I wonder how I could have done if I had prepared for it!
Hubby opted out this year, so I ran with a yoga friend and her son:
2011 has been a great year full of blessings. It has also been peppered with numerous PAINFUL opportunities for growth. I took and continue to take each opportunity as it arises. I will no longer back down when faced with one of these opportunities. I emrace ALL opportunity to deepen my connections with other people as well as taking charge of my own fate. I am POWERFUL, and so are you!
I hope you all have a wonderful holiday. And a wonderful holiday season! I am focused on health, family, friends. Shifting the focus off of the food this holiday season. It's not about what's to eat.