Incidental Journey

Thursday, November 17, 2011

This is me Christmas 2008

This is me Christmas 2009

I know this blog is about my last 30 days, but I wanted everyone to know it all started a long time ago.

The truth about my health and weight loss journey is that it really all began in middle school. That was the first time I really knew I was bigger than a lot of other girls.

I was pretty enough I guess, I had dates and I can't admit to having a normal life (I grew up in San Diego California). It was the 80's and life and I were kinda wild.

In the beach town I grew up in weighing 135 pounds as a teenager barely over 5 feet tall, I was not bikini material.

I grew up, got married and gained 60 pounds with my first pregnancy.
I would struggle with those 60 pounds+ until now.

I was always healthy and I never felt my weight at all. The stark reality came to me in pictures and mirrors, and I did not like those at all.

In late 2008 I got sick. We can call it the mystery illness because no test I took gave me any answers for how I was feeling. It got to the point where I could only hold down liquids. The doctors could not seem to help me so I joined a gym. I needed my strength and health back and after spending so much money on doctors, I figured the gym would be cheaper.

I was right of course.
I tested my liquid diet from time to time with some raw foods and eventually came across some digestive enzymes and alas...I could eat again.

So old habits came back and I began gaining weight and at first I did not care so much because #1 - I could eat again and I liked that and #2 - I never lost weight for the sake of losing weight. I had gotten ill and weight loss was a nifty benefit I gained, and looking good was definitely something I thought I could get used too, but since I did not lose weight with weight loss in mind I was having a hard time maintaining my weight loss.

In January of this year I joined SparkPeople. I needed support if I was ever going to do this right. I stepped on my scale and found my self weighing 174 pounds. I thought to myself "I was just 138 pounds, what happened"!?!?

I continued to struggle and sometime around summer I broke up with my scale, started liking me for me and just loving me for who I was not what I weighed.

The me I have come to love found herself buying candy bars and cheesy snacks and all kinds of junk food.
I would tell myself every night before I went to sleep that tomorrow would be different. That went on for months and then finally one day the tomorrow I found myself in was different.

I had a successful day. I wrote it on the calendar. It wasn't all bells and whistles, but it was a day of not buying or eating junk and I had stayed within my calorie bank. I did it again the next day and I wrote it down again.

Before I knew it, I was re-vamping my strength training, running and biking again too. I wrote all the days down.
Did I stay in my calorie bank everyday? NO!! But I was thinking healthy thoughts and staying close to target and exercised so I wrote those days down too.

It's 30 days later.
It's a not so coincidental incidental journey and I'm loving it!!

I have no idea how much I weigh today. I will blog about my plans for the scale and my goals next time. For now I can tell you that the outfit you see me wearing in the 2009 photo
is an outfit I can fit in to today, and 30 days ago that was not a reality. It really wasn't even close. I can't believe what my body has done in just 30 days!

My Spark is rekindled!
If you have read my blog I am delighted, because without you - you old and new friends here I don't know where I would be. I really mean that. There were times when I just sort of checked out to deal with me, but when I came back you were right here encouraging me like I had never left for weeks on end.

My hearts desire is that I may be the kind of inspiration to others that you all have been to me.

Ciao for now -

Day thir-T

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  • JUGE300000
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    3449 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2716064
    That is one amazing journey. WTG you for all you've accomplished. I went through the same thing of eating what I shouldn't and telling myself tomorrow will be different until I found my Spark again. emoticon
    3459 days ago
  • BEFIT021
    LOVED this Blog! Thanks SO much for sharing your journey in such an honest way.

    Progress, not perfection! Amen to THAT!
    3459 days ago
    That is such an amazing journey, T! Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are such and inspiration and I am soooo proud of what you have accomplished!
    Keep up the great you are beautiful in both photos, but gorgeous in your after shot! What a great feeling that is, both physically and mentally!
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    3459 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8667808
    Love it, T! You're definitely one of my inspirations to keep at it and pick it up no matter how many times I let it go.
    Yay you!
    3459 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4382497
    Fantastic blog!!! emoticon
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    Wishing you continued success on your journey!
    3459 days ago
    Fantastic Blog T. I'm so happy for you.
    3459 days ago
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