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Incidental Journey

Thursday, November 17, 2011

This is me Christmas 2008



This is me Christmas 2009



I know this blog is about my last 30 days, but I wanted everyone to know it all started a long time ago.

The truth about my health and weight loss journey is that it really all began in middle school. That was the first time I really knew I was bigger than a lot of other girls.

I was pretty enough I guess, I had dates and I can't admit to having a normal life (I grew up in San Diego California). It was the 80's and life and I were kinda wild.

In the beach town I grew up in weighing 135 pounds as a teenager barely over 5 feet tall, I was not bikini material.

I grew up, got married and gained 60 pounds with my first pregnancy.
I would struggle with those 60 pounds+ until now.

I was always healthy and I never felt my weight at all. The stark reality came to me in pictures and mirrors, and I did not like those at all.

In late 2008 I got sick. We can call it the mystery illness because no test I took gave me any answers for how I was feeling. It got to the point where I could only hold down liquids. The doctors could not seem to help me so I joined a gym. I needed my strength and health back and after spending so much money on doctors, I figured the gym would be cheaper.

I was right of course.
I tested my liquid diet from time to time with some raw foods and eventually came across some digestive enzymes and alas...I could eat again.

So old habits came back and I began gaining weight and at first I did not care so much because #1 - I could eat again and I liked that and #2 - I never lost weight for the sake of losing weight. I had gotten ill and weight loss was a nifty benefit I gained, and looking good was definitely something I thought I could get used too, but since I did not lose weight with weight loss in mind I was having a hard time maintaining my weight loss.

In January of this year I joined SparkPeople. I needed support if I was ever going to do this right. I stepped on my scale and found my self weighing 174 pounds. I thought to myself "I was just 138 pounds, what happened"!?!?

I continued to struggle and sometime around summer I broke up with my scale, started liking me for me and just loving me for who I was not what I weighed.

The me I have come to love found herself buying candy bars and cheesy snacks and all kinds of junk food.
I would tell myself every night before I went to sleep that tomorrow would be different. That went on for months and then finally one day the tomorrow I found myself in was different.

I had a successful day. I wrote it on the calendar. It wasn't all bells and whistles, but it was a day of not buying or eating junk and I had stayed within my calorie bank. I did it again the next day and I wrote it down again.

Before I knew it, I was re-vamping my strength training, running and biking again too. I wrote all the days down.
Did I stay in my calorie bank everyday? NO!! But I was thinking healthy thoughts and staying close to target and exercised so I wrote those days down too.

It's 30 days later.
It's a not so coincidental incidental journey and I'm loving it!!

I have no idea how much I weigh today. I will blog about my plans for the scale and my goals next time. For now I can tell you that the outfit you see me wearing in the 2009 photo
is an outfit I can fit in to today, and 30 days ago that was not a reality. It really wasn't even close. I can't believe what my body has done in just 30 days!

My Spark is rekindled!
If you have read my blog I am delighted, because without you - you old and new friends here I don't know where I would be. I really mean that. There were times when I just sort of checked out to deal with me, but when I came back you were right here encouraging me like I had never left for weeks on end.

My hearts desire is that I may be the kind of inspiration to others that you all have been to me.

Ciao for now -

Day thir-T

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  • JUGE300000
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    3449 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2716064
    That is one amazing journey. WTG you for all you've accomplished. I went through the same thing of eating what I shouldn't and telling myself tomorrow will be different until I found my Spark again. emoticon
    3459 days ago
  • BEFIT021
    LOVED this Blog! Thanks SO much for sharing your journey in such an honest way.

    Progress, not perfection! Amen to THAT!
    3459 days ago
  • SHASHEE71
    That is such an amazing journey, T! Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are such and inspiration and I am soooo proud of what you have accomplished!
    Keep up the great work.....as you are beautiful in both photos, but wow....so gorgeous in your after shot! What a great feeling that is, both physically and mentally!
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    3459 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8667808
    Love it, T! You're definitely one of my inspirations to keep at it and pick it up no matter how many times I let it go.
    Yay you!
    3459 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4382497
    Fantastic blog!!! emoticon
    emoticon on your weight loss.
    Wishing you continued success on your journey!
    3459 days ago
  • COOKWITHME65
    Fantastic Blog T. I'm so happy for you.
    3459 days ago
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