"May You Live All The Days Of Your Life." / Tough Week
Monday, November 14, 2011
Last week was a difficult week... started with my hubby being away from home for 3 days for his course. I always have a hard time without him around that long - sleep is hard to come by when he's not there which makes for long days. Found out his Aunt who had cancer was in the hospital, transferred to ICU, and ended up succumbing to her illness Tuesday morning. My hubby's family is really small, and she was virtually his only Aunt. In light of this, he decided to come home early and commute back and forth for the last of his course. He has until the 25th, when he can do his actual test and get his license. It's taking a bit longer than I had hoped, but I have faith that things will work out just as they are meant to. I got my monthly 'friend' which just completely magnifies every emotion I've been feeling. Another family member has pneumonia. The weather was too cold for me to run - which I've been missing immensely. I haven't been logging food, but I've been doing alright. Doing mental tallies it all. But my stress levels have been higher than usual, and as a result the scale is moving in the wrong direction (perhaps partly attributed to TOM as well). Which is only making me more frustrated and deflated. One of my fav quotes for these times and feelings is a Calvin and Hobbes one - thank you Bill Watterson:
This too shall pass though. I'm still at 542 minutes so far this month, so I'm doing alright. I know though that when I get stressed everything just sort of halts. Alright, so now that I'm done whining - I've recognized the cause of my emotional turmoil ~ I release it. I'm moving on. I made a commitment to run today - right after work. It was nice out most of the day, I left work at 430pm and it was raining. For a minute or two, I was spent - my evening completely ruined. And then Pink came on the radio, and lifted my spirits. And I was feeling a little better ~ "Guess I can go to the gym at least". I had to take a slight detour home due to traffic issue and saw someone else running, IN THE RAIN! And that was it for me - I made it home belting out some Pink (Raise Your Glass) and completely ready for the run that I committed to. I walked in the door, changed my clothes/laced up my sneaks, kissed my boys and hubby and off I went. Despite the rain, the air is warmer than it has been so I couldn't miss this opportunity. Turns out my Dad has been right all these years too - I'm not made of sugar and spice, and I won't melt in the rain! LOL! I kid. But I did walk/run intervals for about 25 minutes - just me, the pavement and my music! Awesome! I must say though that it's quite a different experience when you are soaked and puddle jumping - but I LOVED IT! I got home, jumped in a warm shower, put my shoes on the vent to dry, and made myself a smoothie. And here I am. I feel GREAT! Man, I am not looking forward to winter. Apparently, it's true - running is addictive. Hmmm... So now I just have to get back on track with logging my food. Do some yoga - cuz it helps. And keep my thoughts/feelings in check. I don't expect to feel happy all the time - but I expect to maintain some level of optimism and to never give up even during these tough times. So in that respect, I'm alright. I'm going to smile and be thankful - I am alive!
"May you live all the days of your life." Jonathan Swift Irish essayist, novelist, & satirist (1667 - 1745)