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unexpected..... really unexpected

Monday, November 14, 2011

I am not talking about this yet, but really felt I had to blog about this. I had been not feeling that great, more than just my cold. I had been tired really tired, and had been having leg cramps, and bloating, and my hair started falling out. I attributed this all to not getting enough protein, and an possible prementral symptoms. So I looked up hairloss online, and it said, most comman reason for hairloss is pregnancy. Now I had had kinda a thought at the back of my mind that there was a small possibility, or this. The month before, I had takena test, as a precation before starting a new medication. Now when I took the test some urine splashed on the little window, so I had no results, but not really worried about it, I didn't take the other test. But I had another test, so after the hairloss thing, I thought, humm I better take one again. So I did, and it was positive right away. So I called my husband. He was dumbfounded. I told him, this does not mean we are having a baby. It just means that an egg has been fertiliazed. So Sunday, I stayed home from church. I had a little bit of a cold, and didn't want it to spread. When John came home, we had a little lunch and stoped at the store and bought, a twin pack of pregnancy tests. I took the first one, and it was positive almost immediatly. But then, I worried, beacuse, I did it with the cup, (after the splash, I thought it would be safer) and I had dipped it longer than the 5 seconds, so I was afraid that it was invalid. The instructions, say may not be valid if you dip it longer or shorter. Therefore I repeated the test after, drinking some more water. This time, I only dipped it in the urine for five seconds, and it too showed a positive result right away. So now I know, I really am pregnant. However, I do not know, if I will be having a baby. Two years ago, my husband and I were surprised by a pregnancy, right after Christmas, we did five home tests, went to our doctors office. Were we had a faint positive. So all they told me to do, was to schedule an appointment with an obgyn. Which was frustrating, beacuse we did not have a doc at that time. So it was a hassle. So I made an appointment for several weeks ahead. Then I had a terriable flu, and was reading, my pregnancy book, and I realized, that the bleeding I had been having, was a miscarriage. It was really tough. I ended up having, blood test after blood test, my hormone levels would not go down. I had to schedule a follow up appointment with an OBGYN, and the guy basicly treated me like he had no Idea why I was there. Like I was bothering him! I told him, the nurses were hounding me, and told me it was very important to have this appointment. The Doctor also told me, that I probally would never get pregnant again. Beacuse I have polycycstic ovaries. Which obviously is wrong, beacuse, here I am two years later pregnant again. However, this time, I do not have insurance, so I am terrified. The low cost clinic, I had been going to told me, I could come for a urine test, but, that they do not treat pregnant women. They siad they could help me, fill out paper work to get babger care, but unfortunatly that sounds like a long process. According to my reasearch online, that I should probaly be taking hormones to ensure, I don't miscarry. But that many women, who are morbidly obese, will have miscarriages, or children with birth defects. SO needless to say, I am terrified. I have been dieting, and exercising, and had hoped that in the next couple years, maybe, maybe, I would get pregnant again. I actually was waiting for my period to start so, I could go on the pill, to help my hormones, get healthy, so I could in the future get pregnant. Part of me, says Praise God, my prayers could be answered. Another part of me says, I have worked hard, to get my health, and begin, my weightloss. I could be setting my husband and myself up, to heartbreak! We could loose this pregnancy, anytime, we could have a baby born with birth defects... etc. I have several family memebers, who have PCOS and are morbidly obese, and have had several healthy children..... but I can't talk to them about, it beacuse it is entirely too early to tell anyone about it. I guess the best thing, I can do, is take the rine test at the clinic, and get some idea, what I will need to see a doctor.
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    Trust God! He has a plan! Congratulations!
    2350 days ago
    Good luck! Everything will work out the way God intends. :)
    2353 days ago
    Your post makes me think of something related, although not quite the same: Some say it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all because you know how wonderful it is to have ever felt love and sometimes you end up lucky and find true love. I can't say if it's true or not because I can see all sides. But I hope somehow it helps you figure things out.
    Hope you feel better really soon!
    2353 days ago
    Praying for the Lord's design in all of this to become clear, so as to relieve your stress - which in itself is not good for you or your baby. Beathe in, breathe out and go ahead and be happy at your really unexpected news!! ((hugs))
    2354 days ago
    I'll be praying God's blessings on you.
    2354 days ago
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    Good Luck and if you need someone to talk to I am here.
    2354 days ago
    Sending healthy vibes your way. Stay well ((hugs))
    2354 days ago
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