Saying Goodbye Once More

Friday, November 11, 2011

In May I wrote a blog about the passing of a beloved Uncle, and sadly, today I write one about the passing of his wife. It's kind of ironic.........I said my goodbyes to him in a little park (I have since learned it is called Fisher's Park) and this morning I took Splash for a walk in town, and we happened by that same park. They were doing a Veteran's Day service there, the park filled with people and the perimeter lined with American lags. My favorite spot held some new flags.....honoring each of the armed forces as well as a POP/MIA flag in addition to some memorial wreaths around the park.

I had plans this evening to meet up with an old friend and do a ghost tour led by my cousin (ghost stories being one of his sidelines.) I had heard from my cousin last night, and he told me his mother was gravely ill and he did not know what kind of mood he would be in this evening, but the tour had already been cancelled once. I met my friend Mary, and she said she had seen a posting by my cousin that his Mother waited until Veteran's Day to join his Dad, we were wondering if the tour would even happen. We got there early, giving us a nice chance for some private time with my cousin. We hugged and exchanged some tears, and I asked if there was anything he needed.......he asked if I would come to the service and would I be pall bearer. How could I refuse? I am so honored to have been asked, but I've never done this before, I am sure I will be a nervous wreck by then!

I am a private person. Not shy, but private. When there is music going, I don't mind being the center of attention, and I will share some things with anybody willing to listen, but when it comes to spiritual things, I prefer being a loner. When Uncle Charlie died, I cried in private and said my goodbyes in private. With Aunt Mabel, I won't have that luxury. I will have to conduct myself appropriately. I usually don't give a rat's rump about what others think, buy my cousin is somewhat of a local celebrity, I certainly don't want to do or say anything that would reflect badly on him.

So. As I often do when something weighs on my mind, I have turned to my keyboard to memorialize my thoughts, stop the churning in my mind and get things in my brain assembled and categorized. Sometimes I feel like the prodigal son (daughter,) as I was away from my home town for over 40 years, now I can't seem to get enough of it. There is something so comforting about walking the familiar streets, re-visiting familiar haunts, re-connecting with the past. Who says you can't go home again?

Rest in Peace, my dear Aunt Mabel. You are being welcomed home by your beloved husband and many siblings including my father, but you will leave a void here on earth in the hearts of those who loved you.
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    2408 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    So sorry to hear about your aunt's passing. **HUGS**. As for being a pal bearer, there will be at least 5 others with you helping to carry the casket. I had the honor of doing the same for a friend and my grandfather. Again **HUGS**
    2409 days ago
    Very nicely said. It is always hard to say goodby in public. You can perform the act of pall bearer in leiu of speaking. emoticon
    2410 days ago
  • MOGAL1946
    Thinking of you and sending hugs your way. emoticon
    2411 days ago
  • BONNIE627
    you will do fine as a pall bearer.. your aunt would be proud of is nice to be able to go home...after all there is no place like home... our prayers are with you during this time as it is always hard to lose someone you love no matter the age etc.. take care and remember we are all supporting you at this time.. emoticon
    2411 days ago
  • BILL60
    Sorry for your pain. Hang in there!!
    2411 days ago
    I am going to say prayers for you as you are at the service. God bless you & your cousin.
    Hugs for your family.
    Your picture is wonderful. Thank you.
    Hugs Debbie
    2411 days ago
    You sound like me hon. I too am private especially when it comes to something deep. I too go to music---appreciation of it, I have no talent other than that.

    You'll do fine at the service. Your heart is in the right place.

    2411 days ago
  • IILAAD65
    Very well said!

    I am glad you are going to do this. I think it will help you mourn to be around others. You can still keep your thoughts private. But your cousin needs you . He has lost both his parents in a short time. Losing one parent is devastating enough...

    You and your family are in my prayers.
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