Big Run/Short Run Dilemma

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Wednesdays are my "big run" days. I have back to back agility classes with my dogs and then I follow that up with a good run with them. I do my runs with a friend, which is motivation in itself. I can't EVER call in sick or just decide that I don't feel like it, as my running partner (other than my dogs...and hers) has all the reasons in the world to do that, but doesn't; she has cancer. She was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer three and a half years ago and was given three to six months....did I say that that was 3 AND A HALF YEARS AGO! So, you see why it would really be difficult to say that I don't feel well enough to run. She has a kickass attitude and the determination of anyone that has topped Everest. This is the person who was told that the pain her legs is a weakness, where a fracture or break could occur, but it didn't stop her from running her dogs. Unfortunately, the cancer has spread to her bones, brain, and lungs (other places too, but they responded better to treatments). The last three weeks have been really difficult for her and for the first time since her diagnosis, she has missed runs. I have to say I'm pretty scared. In turn, my runs have been shorter and even my morning runs leave me thinking/worrying about her.

Tonight, another friend offered to run with me, but I told her I'd rather solo it. Why would I do such a thing?? That is so not like me. I certainly enjoy the company, but...I don't know. I think she was actually relieved, because she looked tired and is not normally a runner. I did a short run and dropped off some soup at my running partners house.

I'm not sure why I wrote this. I can't bring myself to delete it, but I really don't want to be a downer and it seems like all my blogs lately are depressing and sad. That's really not me, believe me. Maybe I just needed to "put" this somewhere and if you read it all, Thank You. I promise the next blog will represent my chipper, crazy self a bit better...even if I got BS it!
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    Seriously . . . you are SUPPOSED to blog if that's what helps you . . . doesn't matter if it's the good, bad or ugly of life. That's what this is all about. So, don't feel bad.

    On that note, I will share that my Mom has breast cancer (diagnosed in June, 2011), had 13 radiation treatments, and 3 boosters. She luckily did not need a mastectomy, and the lymph nodes were negative. Anyway, she is my hero. She may have a bad day, but that doesn't keep her down.

    My lil sis has had lymphoma for 10 yrs. now, and that's on top of stage 4 renal disease. Holy smokes . . . if that girl can keep going day-to-day, well . . . so can I! She's also my hero!!

    So, I am very sorry for your friend. She sounds like a hero to me . . . a fighter.

    Life has so many challenges and disappointments, and it's alright to get down!

    Lord knows, my DS has turned the world upside down most of his teenage life, causing an unending source of stress. I had so many health issues . . . DEFINITELY stress related that I made up my mind . . . alright . . . you have 30 minutes to have your pity party. After that . . . it's time to move on. Eventually my pity parties didn't even last the whole 30 minutes because they were, frankly, boring! Nobody attended.

    So, I still have down days, I still use my trusty ol' timer and have my pity parties when I need to, but I do NOT feel guilty about it. I hope you don't either! It's part of being human.

    OK, sorry about the sermon here!

    I just hope you have a good day and you are a VERY good friend for bringing soup to your friend. That ALWAYS makes a bad day good for me.

    How is the agility training going?
    3554 days ago
    This is what blogging is for - getting all the stuff out! So sorry about your friend. She sounds really amazing, you are lucky to know her. I'm sure your running will work out once you figure out where you want to go from here.
    3554 days ago
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