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Tomorrow - November 10th

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Tomorrow my mother would have been 86 years old. She passed away 11 years ago and it feels like it was just yesterday. I miss her so much. She was the matriarch of my family and she was my best friend. Since her passing I have no family but my two children, my partner and three dogs. After she passed, because she did not leave a Will my brothers and sister turned on me making my life a total whirlwind. I guess someday I will forgive them and I know I should but it is so HURTFUL. I still feel the pain they caused and because of it I seldom fall into a depression.

I am trying my best to seek help for my depression. I have been very strong in the past years but sometimes I feel very weak. By weak I mean I eat, play unnecessary games on the computer instead of interact with my children and partner. I don't feel like doing anything but sit around. I know this is not healthy and I know my mom would not have wanted this for me. So, I need to seek help.

Happy Birthday Mom - the memories of you I cherish in my heart always, Diana~
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    My mom died in 96 when she was 65 and I still miss here too. I lost almost all of my family in 3 years except for my dad, half brother, uncle, son, and hubby.

    My husband's siblings are like yours. No offense but it sounds like you are better off without them. Why punish yourself? You still have people who love you. Concentrate on them and not the people who hurt you. People like this are toxic and bring nothing but grief. I don't allow negative people in my life and you shouldn't either. If they can bring you nothing but pain then find your happiness elsewhere.
    2386 days ago
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    2387 days ago
    Diana, I'm glad you are trying to seek help. I hope you get it. I had to get help a couple of times. Do it for yourself and family. You deserve to be healthy and happy.

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    It is difficult when a loved one dies and then others get greedy. However, forgiveness is not to benefit them, but it benefits you by allowing you to go forward in life.

    Do cherish those memories, but also take steps to regain your health in body, soul, and spirit.
    2387 days ago
    Please--get the help you need. One little pill or talking to someone can make so much difference. You deserve to be happy and your partner and kids need you to be there for them--completely, not just in body. Good luck.
    2388 days ago
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