Ranting and feeling sorry for myself - just bear with me.
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
Today is not a good day by any measure.
- First my FIL had to make a difficult decision to put my MIL in the hospital (she is 90, has not been eating-only weighs 83 pounds -, she has been unable to walk for the past week and half, she is not always lucid and she cannot sleep) When my FIL tried to explain to her his decision she began crying and reminding him that he promised not to EVER put her in the hospital or nursing home - which is where she may end up. I feel so bad for him.
- Second- my son, the one who is now a lawyer, was going to walk with me today. When I got there he was playing an online video game and was not ready and would not be for 15 minutes! He did not want to end his "quest" on the game. I was talking to him about his upcoming move to Columbus (he has a fellowship with the house of representatives in the state house). He is having a hard time finding folks to help him make the move and was wanting me to drive the U-Haul truck back from Columbus. Well for starters I am not at all comfortable driving a 16' truck 130 miles. When I suggested his wife ride back with me - she is not moving until end of December - he tells me that would not be a good idea. Because I am her MIL. and he was not joking - What the heck does that mean? I found that to be very insulting. I feel like he is ashamed of me. Well I left after that feeling very hurt. While I was driving home I actually had a very good plan for him but still stinging by his behavior toward me I sent him a text letting him know how he hurt me and that sometimes I have valid plans and that I just talk them out to tweak them. I also told him I will not bother him any more.
-Third- found out that I have Restless Leg Syndrome and heavy exercise only makes it worse! That is why I have been unable to sleep. I try to sleep and my legs feel like fire ants are swarming my legs. I don't know what to do. I did seek additional information from every site I could and they pretty much concur.
I apologize for ranting but today just SUCKS!