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Tuesday, November 08, 2011

November has been weird. Ok, I just misspelled it Movember, so maybe I should focus on making this Move - mber where I concentrate on moving more and worrying less. Doing rather than thinking and over thinking and re thinking.

I've been so busy I can't post on boards or even read them. Homeschooling is going awful this year, we'll work through it, November is always tough on us - it's when the little one begins resisting in earnest and I have to crawl out of the box and get more creative, right when the weather is turning to the snuggly stay in bed and venture forth no more.

I think I may be descended from some sort of hibernating creature - whereas my husband came from creatures who just run around all the time to stay warm in Winter. Anyway, it's been a rough month. I've had a binge (maybe more) but I can't figure out why I'm not having one every day. I mean this month has been ROUGH emotionally and in the past I'd have eaten my way through it.

I'm not complaining, I'm just trying to wrap my head around WHY. Why can I feel like my grip on reality is slipping and yet I'm eating well. And then other days things are going fairly well and I'm in the pantry?!

Is it my old way of dealing with stress where while under stress I'm all business, all in control, and all capable. And then when the stress ends is when I crash and burn? Maybe that's it.

Heck, I don't know. But this month's emo stress is kicking my behind. I wont' go into detail right now on all the crud I'm dealing with, but suffice it to say I don't have time to go into it because it's pinging on me to get back to it right now. Ugh.

Bye, guys. I miss catching up with all of you on the boards/team posts/reading your blogs, and just hangin' out. I tried last night, but only got through about 20m of poking around and then got called back to the grind.

But hey, at least I was on my new mini-stepper for that 20m! I got it at a garage sale for $20, and so far it's already been a great buy!

Trying to stay positive. Find the good stuff and squeeeeeeeze.
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  • no profile photo CD8667808
    I laughed out loud when I read your status, it's the big question indeed. Hmmm, I've been attributing my precarious success to practice, but I'll never stop being curious about what's going on a deeper level.
    Sorry things are so hard right now. Just know that even if you don't have time to be with us, we're here cheering you on and throwing hugs across the cosmos and hoping you're taking good care of yourself!
    3507 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2219650
    Maybe - for right now - you shouldn't worry about the why. Maybe - for right now - it's enough that the healthy eating is happening more often than not. Whatever reason, try to just let it flow for now. Sometimes over analyzing can screw things up.

    I hope the stress let's up and 4th grade rolls more smoothly for you and your son.

    3507 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10364891
    emoticon Hope things get less stressful soon! Sending lots of positive thoughts your way. emoticon
    3507 days ago
    emoticon I homeschooled my children, too. It can be tough but stay can do it! They are both now in college...
    3507 days ago
  • DEE797
    Hope you are able to find some time for yourself. Life pinging on you can be difficult at times. emoticon
    3508 days ago
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