Success at gaining an insight about myself
Monday, November 07, 2011
I have been maintaining for three years now and figured I had mastered some of my old yens and food temptations. Although I would have allowed myself some Halloween candy and we had some on hand, I easily resisted it. Then my granddaughter brought us some Salted Caramels. I ate one since she wanted me to try it. I liked it a lot, although I know many people do not like that combination of flavors. I decided that this candy would be one that I could save and reserve for an occasional treat. Then I saw my DH going to the jar and taking out several at a time and eating them. Something in my old self kicked in and I told him not to eat ALL of them. He, of course, acted defensively, but also sort of ignored my attack. I went to the jar and grabbed one and ate it. I thought of taking some out of the candy jar and freezing them so I could have some even if he finished the jar. Suddenly I realized that this behavior was just what I used to do when I would yo-yo up and down. I wanted to hoard the candy -- sort of like an alcoholic who puts stashes here and there "in case". When I fully understood this, I felt free to share these candies and even figured that if DH ate all of them, that would be a good thing for me. I went to him and explained what I had discovered about myself and he laughingly said that he was only eating them as a favor to me so I wouldn't be tempted. I can look at the jar now and do not feel anxious. I know I can have one occasionally and when they are gone, that will be okay.