Taking care of me
Sunday, November 06, 2011
I have a husband and children. I take care of them.
My dear grandmother with dementia that lives a few blocks away. I help take care of her.
I manage a busy department of a health care facility. Daily I take full responsibility of my patients and the staff I supervise.
I manage personal and professional finances. I ensure my home and department are comfortable and presentable. I am no stranger to hard work and long days.
And lately I have been sad, tired, and completely spent. Living the dream, I guess...
I did not join Sparkpeople because I was looking to do some self care. I felt overweight and desperate for help losing 10lbs. before an upcoming vacation. I expected the diet and exercise to be another task on my very long "To Do" list.
Yesterday, after a great workout and a successful day of eating healthy food, I felt energized. I felt good about myself. I felt in control. I felt happy.
I have not felt that way in a long time. And it got me thinking...
I preach so often to my staff the importance of taking care of themselves so they can come to work ready to care for our patients. Up until 2-3 years ago, I would say I was faithful to practice what I preached. Somewhere along the line I got off track. I stopped making self-care a priority for myself.
I can clearly see that the 10lbs., the sadness, the lack of energy...none of them were due to the crazy hectic pace of my life. They were a result of me putting me last on the "To Do" list. All too often I left my needs unmet because they seemed less important.
Well, my needs ARE important. Taking care of myself is a worthwhile use of my time. Perhaps I even deserve a bit of spoiling every now and again?
So, today I spoiled myself! And it felt good to have a treat I have not had in 3 years. I fully intend to continue to take care of me...and do some spoilin' every now and again. It is soooooooooo worth it.