Sitting in a dark hospital room
Friday, November 04, 2011
My dear mother in law is dying of cancer. It has only been three weeks since her diagnosis but she collapsed after her first chemo treatment ten days ago and has been in the hospital ever since. Bedridden. In a diaper. Last night they put in a feeding tube, but she pulled it out this early this morning. Her deterioration has been exponential. Cancer sucks. Cancer really, really sucks. Especially when it takes you like a tsunami and drags you out to sea. Today the palliative services group met with us. My father in law can't deal with what is happening. Fifty two years of marriage to a woman who did everything....and did it superbly. It is too much for him. For now, I sit in the dark in her hospital room, quietly waiting for the inevitable. Maybe I will become an Angels fan...I just wish it wasn't recruiting season. But I guess it is not my decision. Ouch. Cancer sucks.