November 4th, 4 days into it where is my gratitude?
Friday, November 04, 2011
Okay it is only day 4 of this latest phase. I remain on track with the healthy eating. I worked out every day this week. I practiced for Zumba and taught 2 classes. All sounds good, right? I know it does to me too.
So why does it feel so crummy? Work is so slow, the bills are piling up, I am robbing Peter to pay Paul. SIGH. blech.
Same old story, new day. But there is nothing to be done but keep doing what I do. I understand that I can only do my part. The outcome is not up to me. It just has been so very long that the economy has kept business so poor. I am running out of steam.
So once again I have to borrow on my future, which is a joke because I won't repay it. Unless a miracle happens. What happens when the retirement fund runs dry? Then what?
Right. One day at a time. Today I have many blessings. Time to start counting:
great family - Mom, Dad, stepmom/dad, brothers & sisters
work that I like even tho there is no pay right now
I live in paradise
I have a house to live in, a roof above my head
a comfy bed to retreat to
food to eat.
super dog - love my Sammy
fun job teaching Zumba
friends new and old. love them.
i can see, hear, smell, touch, feel