30 Days to Greater Happiness - Here We Go Again
Tuesday, November 01, 2011
I have not been around very much in the past several months. Life is busy, as it is for all of us, and time is at a premium. The last thing in the world I have time to do is a daily blog, and yet..here I am. The next week promises to be a crazy one, given that next Tuesday is Election Day, and yet, here I am, starting to write a daily blog in the midst of it.
But I've got to do something to get myself on track, as I feel like my journey to health along with just about every other aspect of my life is spinning out of control, and for some reason, this appeals to me..so here we go...greater happiness, a worthy goal, don't you think?????
Spark tells us that on day 1, we should consider starting a hobby, because if we are engaged in interesting actvities, we are more likely to feel fulfilled. So true, so true. Just the other day I found myself in a craft store buying some election supplies, and I was thinking boy, I wish I did something creative. I did try to learn how to knit once, but that was awfully short-lived. Our local adult education center gives classes all the time on everything from jewelry making to centerpiece making..I read the catalogue, I think boy, that would be great, maybe I will...maybe I will....and then, of course, I don't. I don't because I don't have time, I don't because I forget about it in the midst of the whirlwind that my life has become.
It's funny, I don't hate my life, but it is neither fulfilling nor satisfied because it is too busy. I don't have any time to myself. Even the times that I set aside for myself I don't spend on myself. There is always something else to be done, some other pressing thing going on. It has gotten so ridiculously busy that I no longer get my laundry done on the weekends, instead, I find myself folding those last loads on Friday, right before I start it all over again. Weeks go by without getting much more housework done than vacuuming, and that is usually when the tumbleweeds of dog hair are so obvious that I cannot sleep because they bother me so much.
I find that when I do have some time, I am so overwhelmed that I don't do anything, I just graze, eat stuff I should not, and lay on the couch, thinking about all the things I need to do. Yesterday, I had an unexpected day off from work, because we had no power. I spent the morning doing some things that I had not had a chance to do, making a guest list for my son's birthday party, sending out some online invitations, making my menu, getting information about his "friend's" birthday party at a local indoor baseball facility... I cleaned out my refrigerator, I put a turkey breast into the crock pot (my new favorite thing of all time to cook in the crockpot), I sorted last week's laundry and started that., I cleaned my bathrooms.. Then I got on the couch and spent a few hours, just doing nothing. I don't know if I spent my time wisely, but I sure felt like I spent it the way I wanted to. I could certainly have done more, but I didn't do less, but none of what I did was for me. I didn't even work out, and pray tell, what possible reason could I have for not having taken 30 minutes to ride my bike, do a Wii fit workout, do an exercise video, go out for a walk....
So, the hobby idea is wrapped up into the thought of taking some time for myself, and for reasons I can't explain, I just can't, I just don't.
I will try to do better. I will try to start with 10 minutes a day to do something for me. I need to, for me, and for my family, because I fear I have become a grump. Today, I think I will try to take 10 minutes to read a book I've been carrying around for weeks now: The Wellness Book, and to do one of the exercises it asks me to. And I will get in some exercise too. Perhaps I need to make myself my hobby, do you think that counts? I hope so, because that is now my plan..
If anyone is reading this, do you guys have hobbies? Anything you can suggest for a pretty un-crafty, unimaginative person like myself??? Would love to hear...