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So, I Think I'm Scared.........

Sunday, October 30, 2011

I'm down 80lbs plus now. A feat I never imagined would happen, but has. I've just kept plugging along, not being to hard-lined about my "diet" and here I find myself, at a weight I could never have imagined. For thirty years (I'm forty) I've been trying to lose weight, have gained weight, dieted to drop pounds only to stop at still a fairly high number and started the climb back up. I'd mentally beaten myself all through-out that time. Not fun.

And here, thrilled with my new body and most importantly my state-of-mind (no more mental lashings), I realized today that I am scared of what comes next. In all my years of playing this weight game I have never been on this side of it. Many people are now asking me if I am done losing weight. My response is always "Yes?" Why can't I have a definitive answer? Why don't I have a "goal-weight"? I am physically strong and looking good, wearing sizes I didn't know I could count down to. I have no doubt that I can keep this weight off. I love my new life-style which includes lots of sweat, good food choices (most of the time) and being happy with myself. But what happens when I stop at the game I've been winning for the last year and a half? Where do I go from here?

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    You are amazing and you have accomplished a lot. I am so proud of you, rock star!~

    Any new journey comes with a little bit of trepidation - but you are gonna make it and conquer - because you already have.

    You got this. Battle on, warrior!!!!!

    2323 days ago
    Wow! Look at you! Have a wonderful time getting acquainted with the new you. How exciting! THANKS for being an inspiration to those of us who are still on our way. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2367 days ago
    Be happy that you have gotten down to your goal weight and go out and treat yourself to something nice. Good Job! emoticon
    2367 days ago
    Woo Hoo! Great Job. Don't be afraid, celebrate your success and step out and enjoy your new body.
    2367 days ago
    now live your life and be happy with the new you!!!!! emoticon
    2367 days ago
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