Why I Can Never Be Satisfied (and why that is good...)
Monday, October 24, 2011
I have the kind of personality where I am never satisfied with myself. If I run 4 miles, but walk the last block, it's not good enough. If I lose a pound, I worry that it's a pound of muscle because I missed a workout last week. Never satisfied. Never good enough. It's not that I really beat myself up or anything, but I also don't give myself credit for accomplishment. I used to think it was a curse, "oh why am i like this? boo hoo!" but in reality, it keeps me going. Keeps me trying, striving to always do better the next time.
Right now, I am at a healthy weight. I could maintain and be active and perfectly healthy, but THAT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH. For some reason, I feel like that would be settling. It's not that I want to be super tiny, I want to be super strong. Strong is the new skinny, people!
I really think it's important to see the good in things you once thought were bad. For instance, my family is really struggling financially right now, but my son is going to grow up knowing the value of a dollar and never taking it for granted like I used to.
This is what I am working for. To be the most healthy me, to show him a good way to live.
If you find yourself feeling down, try to flip your thoughts into something positive. Celebrate your success, but always strive for more. Celebrate your family, celebrate life, after all, it is what we are working so hard for, right?