Sunday, October 23, 2011
This is one of those diet ideas that many people don't like to talk about yet many of us do it. This weekend was a last hurrah of sorts. Maybe it works for some to pretend they can have whatever they want in moderation but I am not one of those people. It is an all or nothing thing for me. The more relaxed I am with myself the more and more difficult this gets for me. Simple is cleaner and more precise and that is what I need to do. Back to basics. Drink my water, avoid sugar, etc. That is when I have success. So this weekend I got it out of my system. Ate some junk, had a big steak but also made the right decisions to set myself up for the rest of the week. I did not buy all the stuff that was holding me back, like the giant fresh english muffins from my local bakery, and instead invested in healthier choices. I know how to do this. I have all the tools. Now is my time to implement them and if for me that meant eating some of the things I am going to say goodbye to well I have no guilt over that. Yes, a few days a year I will be indulge but I know my body well enough at this point to accept that I am just not built to be able to eat as I please most days of the year. That is ok. It is who I am and no more punishing myself over it. I am going to be happy. The last words my grandmother said to me before she passed was "be the person that would make your grandfather proud of you" and not only do I want to be that person for them but I want to be that person for me.