10/22: I Couldn't Help Myself
Saturday, October 22, 2011
I am having such a good week. I got to go back to work, super happy about that after being off for nine weeks. I get my cast off on Monday which means I can start working out again and get back on track with my running program, or at least a walking program. Okay, here is the big news. I know it's terrible. I didn't lose 70 pounds to be a mean person. It's mostly to become a better version of myself, but I really couldn't help myself! My ex, my ex who left me for a thinner woman, my ex who dumped me when my mother had cancer, my ex who I supported while he was in college, I ran into him for the first time in two years. It was wickedly gleeful to see him look so stunned. He didn't recognize me! He kept stuttering and saying how good I looked. He kept saying we should get together for old times sake. I nearly laughed in his face. I might have changed my outside a lot, my mind a little, and gained some confidence, but it's still me and if he didn't want me the way I was, then he can't have me now! Honestly, I lost a some weight, not my mind!