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Survey: Psychological Effect of Weight Loss

Saturday, October 22, 2011

hi spark

emoticon What psychological effects you have encountered? emoticon

I have been reading some of your blog, well all of my SP-friends blogs.
And I see a pattern in the psychological effects of weight loss.

what am I talking about

1. emoticon SCARED, scared of what?

...of CHANGE
...of really DOING it
...of "crap, I have to do this for rest of life?"
...of "will, I like my self @ [insert goal]?"
etc

2. emoticon JEALOUSY, jealousy of what/whom?

...of YOU from friends
...of other sparkers progress
etc

3. emoticon ENLIGHTENMENT, enlightenment of whom?

...of YOU, and you want to convert everyone
...of YOU, "If I can, so can you!"
...of YOU, "Interesting.... I will educate myself more on this topic"
etc

4. emoticon LOVE, love of what/whom?

...of YOURSELF, do you love yourself more or found more to HATE?
...of YOUR SPOUSE, do you love them more, or found you have NOTHING in common?
...of Romance, are you looking or not looking for a relationship
etc

5. emoticon HAPPINESS, what happiness?

...of LIFE, do you enjoy life more?
...of Satisfaction, are you satisfied?
etc

6. emoticon BALLSY.....yes...simply put...

...did you grow BALLS.....
etc

I can't think of anymore... but please ADD!
______________

Me?


I found I wAS NOT READY

When I started my journey, I just wanted to lose the weight


This apirlrain had enough..of it all....
she just wanted to shed some pounds!

SHE has no idea what that meant!

Because in her past weight loss journeys.... it was to have baby!

so She would LOSE the required weight to concieve....
and at pregnancy.... eat whatever (at least for 1st. 2nd couldnt keep food down)
and after labor...it's MOM MODE

breast-feeding.... again eat whatever, replenish right

Then I just maintain status quo.... you know. live life, no exercise
active only when we go outing and stuff.

meanwhile dying inside

FAST FORWARD
after 2nd baby...... my LAST in my mind

there was no more, WELL I will not be preggo again!

you know the "oh why bother, I going to be FAT aka preggo again"

so I buckled down....oh and the no walking and hospitalization kinda shooked me a little LOL

So anyways, not only did i find SPARK, but I found C25k

Something that actually made my body see RESULTS

NEVER did apirlrain on the left, ever think she will turn into apirlrain on the right

NOT in a million years!

In fact NO ONE thought it would happen

sadly only ppl here on spark aw the right apirlrain!
My hubby didn't see her
My sisters didn't see her....only on Spark by NOT in real life
My friend here knew.....but only saw a SHELL......

That apirlrain....as motivating as she was
was really excited about SEEING results!!! (who wouldn't)
but didnt' know how to maintain!
but didn't know that is only TEMPORARY if you didn't adapt lifestyle change to equation.

That apilrain....didn't see the silver lining...was going after the gold!
Good thing was hubby loved her even more
kids loved her more for being active
she inspired more ppl!

But she didn't understand BALANCE
and PFFT burnt out

i didn't expereince jealousy, or relationship issues
but I was SCARED!!!!

scared of who I have becomed
i went from this...yes that is a potty

to this


in what seemed like over night 7 months!!!!!

I never wore make up.....never dressed up!
I couldn't keep up!

you know once you make these changes I thought ppl expect these changes

and I shriveled up!!!!

NOW having SAID this

I came back and chk on my OLD spark friends

who are doing AMAZING! you know who you are!

and they are going along JUST fine!

i asked them..

were they THIN before?
did they always CARE what they look like?

The ones that succeed... had a sense of self awareness or gained it in the process
The ones that succeed... had found a balance
The ones that succeed... had fully accepted this a LIFESTYLE CHANGE


hence I am restarting this year as journey to love me!!!!!!!!

i mean...what's the point if I am going to shrivel up at the end of this

PLEASE share your journey....
if you chose to write a blog...let me know

spark on



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  • no profile photo CD1223914
    You have the right idea!
    3218 days ago
  • COMPUCATHY
    I think you've got it...it seems the lifestyle change is the key. This is not a diet. It is not an exercise regimen or routine. It's putting eating right and getting consistent activity into place...as a part of your everyday lifestyle. You don't have to do it hard and strong for a short period of time. You have to do it balanced for the long haul. With that, you get the fitness you seek. You get the weight loss you desire. And you have a life that works, that is pleasurable, that makes you younger day by day. And with all of that, you will gain confidence and joy and a "spark" for your life. Success breeds success...and you're on your way. Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon
    3218 days ago
  • LYON77
    As usual, a great honest blog!! Your honesty always comes through. I love that you share your vulnerability and because of that I feel like you show so much STRENGTH!!! I just have this to add regarding my recent running success (11 weeks of committment, can run non stop between 30 minutes and 60 minutes every time!!) Once I said that I was going to do this for ME and not to lose 10 pounds or to fit into (fill in the blank piece of clothing) and my perspective changed it was like something clicked and I was able to run like I never have run before! It has to be about YOU and no one else!
    3218 days ago
  • CURVYDIVA86
    Oh man, such a great, thought-provoking blog. I have been thinking about this kind of thing a lot lately as it is, so I may have to jot down a blog about it soon. Basically, I've been thinking a lot about perspective during weight loss vs. maintenance, and even in the big picture weight loss (i.e. I want to lose 30 lbs) to the smaller picture (i. e. I want to lose 5 pounds). It is completely crazy how our minds change, don't change, etc. as our bodies change, don't change, etc. Ahh!!

    Your journey is amazing, though, and your self-awareness is brilliant. Thanks for sharing it all with us!
    3219 days ago
  • LOIDAEG
    I think this time you will most definitely succeed!!! :-) You've got the right mind set now!!

    I never ever used to wear makeup or care about what I looked like. I used to wear simple jeans and butt ugly tshirts. lol! no makeup. hair up ALL the time. plain shoes. Boring attire. Now I make an effort each and every single day to look my best, including makeup every single day. It does become a part of you. A lifestyle. You learn to adapt. IT takes awhile but it is possible. :-) You gotta take care of yourself! Happy mommy, happy kiddies! :)

    You can do it!!!
    3219 days ago
  • ABB698
    So are you saying he wasn't your last baby? emoticon Spark on Girlie!
    3219 days ago
  • APIRLRAIN888
    I want to thank u for all your comments and I loved reading your blog response. My learning curve has spiked u guys are awesome!!!
    3219 days ago
  • ROOBEARZ
    Great blog!! And your personal journey sounds like a wonderful one. I've found that as I go down in weight, I'm "connecting" a lot more to memories that occurred at certain weight marks that I hit. It's like traveling back in time and really experiencing a lot of the emotions and thoughts associated with that time. Some good, some bad, many things I haven't thought about in some time.
    3219 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    This time your success will last!
    3219 days ago
  • RUNJEWELRUN
    Great blog! I will have a response for you in a blog today.
    3219 days ago
  • CONFUSEDBIRD
    I think a big thing I have learned is that you gotta make yourself happy. Sometimes the small piddly things are what makes it. Having red toe nails makes me feel sexy. Going to zumba and shaking it makes me feel sexy lol If your happy then you will push to have other things in your life be good. We seem to forget those things when we let ourselves go with kids or whatever it could be. I am happy to hear you found your groove and feel awesome in your skin again!
    3219 days ago
  • AGARRETT
    Your blogs are always so insightful! Thank you for posting this, it does make one think about why and what we are doing this lifestyle change for.
    3219 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8092638
    Awesome blog!!! Weight loss makes you a whole new person and the outside changes are MINIMAL compared to the inside changes.
    3219 days ago
  • NATPLUMMER
    This time...you've got it!!
    3219 days ago
  • KERLESS
    I find it interesting that you included jealousy. I think that is something that I have definately experience but wouldn't say outloud. I DO feel jealous sometimes of others who seem to have lost weight way quicker than I did and I feel like I'm doing all the same things, if not more! Hmmm...you may have inspired a new blog for me, maybe I need to work this stuff out!
    3219 days ago
  • VENISEW1
    I can relate to you in so many ways & love to read your blogs emoticon
    3219 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5826541
    wow, what a great blog and great insight! you are really getting the message and are making great progress... unleash yourself and see how far you can really go.
    3219 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8305001
    Great blog April and thanks for sharing your journey on here. You have to love yourself and find that happy place otherwise it does no good to work toward your goal. You need to be happy with who you are and not depend on others acceptance and what they think you should look like. Losing weight is such an experience and takes you on a roller coaster of emotions alot of ups and downs. I know you will accomplish it and you will continue to inspire many along the way. Keep on Sparking!!
    3219 days ago
  • SHAWNEDA
    I will answer your question in my blog for today! Keep sparking AprilRain it is a journey and it take a lifetime. Check it out right it now.
    3219 days ago
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