It's Been Rough...
Saturday, October 22, 2011
So for the past couple months I have had the biggest issue with CHOCOLATE you have ever seen!
Apparently chocolate has the power to jump out the wrapper and into my mouth whenever it is near me and I am just so sick of it!
But seriously, when I realized that I was getting a little thicker around the mid-section, I realized that maybe it was time for me to get my behind together!
I am a pretty self-motivated person, I really am, but apparently I am in a diet (what I'm eating, not calling this a "diet" by any means) and fitness rut.
I've been so hungry and eating a bunch of BS...and I've been lazy as sin. And I really just don't know why.
I really think that my job has been making me unhappy. That's too much for a blog to discuss at once, but let's just say, I'm not where I want to be right now.
I've been researching and applying for new jobs with not much luck, and I feel so stuck, it just makes me depressed thinking about it.
I'm kinda sick of people asking me so many questions or judging whether it looks I lost weight or not, because it just make me feel like donkey poop. And I don't like that I can tell I've gained weight in pictures, or that I feel more tired, or just feeling not like myself.
Which is exactly how I feel, like I look in the mirror and don't know who I am.
Sorry this is getting so deep but honestly I've completely lost my footing and I'm just trying to get back on track.
I was able to be so positive before but it feels like I'm slipping away from my real self.
At any rate, I'm trying to get it together and I hope you all are doing great!