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2:15AM, Saturday, 22 October

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Here I sit after waking up with a blood sugar of 66. A little shaky, but not too bad. It's crazy - a Subway sandwich always raises my blood sugar - never drops it. Well - I guess NEVER goes out the window. I guess the exercise is helping.

While I'm sitting waiting for the blood sugar to raise, I've been thinking about a lot of things going on. . .

My oldest daughter had 2 phone interviews and an on-site interview at a Hospice in Rockford, IL. If she gets it, she will be only 5 hours from us. She really wants this position, but upon returning back to Maryland after her interview - she received an e-mail from Iowa Health Systems in Des Moines. I'm being selfish, but I want her to get the job in Des Moines which would put her about an hour from Ames. She has only 1 item left to finish her Master's Degree in Thanatology (the study of death) - the certification test administered next month. She is currently working on her 2nd Master's Degree in social work. If she gets the job in Des Moines - I wonder how this will affect her schooling since Iowa doesn't recognize her online program from USC in California. I need to put my trust and faith in God to lead her in the direction he has for her life.

Like I said before, lots of things going through my head right now. My father-in-law has moderate Alzheimer's. It is so difficult to see him going down hill. He is such a wonderful person. I feel very blessed to be a part of his family. He's fighting so hard to remember that his wife died (2 yrs ago next month). They were married 62 years. Every time he hears she died, it's like the first time he's hearing it. I wish there was some way to help him remember. But sadly, I know it's only going to get worse. My grandmother died with Alzheimer's.

I have a wonderful husband who is the Power of Attorney for his father. Out of 6 children (2 girls, 4 boys) and 4 living within driving distance to see their father only my husband and one of the sister visits him. Two siblings, a brother lives out east and a sister lives out west. His brother (3 years younger) has not gone to the care facility to see his father since putting him in the home last January. I feel the stress my husband's been dealing with. This brother is so concerned about the money. We had a family reunion about 2 weeks ago and the only time this brother spoke to his father was when Dad asked about his camera. Pretty sad when you treat your father that way.

It feels good to be able to tell someone about what's going on. I don't want to burden Roger with my stress since he is dealing with his. Writing it down is very therapeutic.

Well, it's about 3:50AM and I have a busy day ahead of me. Over 40 orders to get in the mail. I also need to start putting together the die cuts for the craft show in 3 weeks. Not sure just what all I want take, but I know for sure some Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm excited and a little apprehensive since this will be my 1st Craft Show.

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    Your blog caught my eye at 3 am, but i'm just now replying about 5 am. I know those middle of the night worries and such. THIS is a good place to work things out-- get support and keep your hand out of the cookie jar, too. At least until it is time for the morning Dog walk! heehee

    I've read all your blogs and it sounds like you and i are close in weight starts and while our health problems are a bit different I know what you are going through from my own and my family difficulties. It is POSSIble to get off insulin =my sister did it 135 pounds down and as she crept down so did her insulin and other meds. It was amazing to witness. Hope I get to watch you do the same!
    Congrats on your successful WEigh in! Yay

    Moving is hard for me too Couch potato here too-i'd rooted to mine. But my Dog DESERVES a walk moring and night and so do I and if I pace myself the fibro doesn't GEt me, it actually gets better. Funny how that works.

    REgarding your Father-In-Law, he is blessed to have yall. Isn't there some kind of memory chart/board thing made for patients? Perhaps you could do it with scrapbook page items? So during Lucid Moments Important events are 'caught up on' quickly-- not necessarily painlessly, but they are there. Pictures of weddings, babies and yes, his wife's funeral= the family in finery to talk about how proud he can be of his children- a kind and positive direction to take the conversation. Seems to me i remember something like this. also pics of who is whom, like a photo album but simpler so there is no embarrassment.

    Sorry for the pain of all that-- again he is blessed to have yall to care and visit. It will mean much to him that you do.

    Well,my doggie seems to be having a bad dream- to time to calm her. Sorry for my ramblings here on your blog, but your post struck a few chords.

    Night Niter,
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    I hate those middle of the night wake-ups!! Hope you got some rest!
    2736 days ago
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