Tired of feeling this way...
Friday, October 21, 2011
I am tired of feeling sad all of the time. Tired of feeling like I am unimportant. Tired of feeling like everything I do is wrong. Tired of feeling like no one cares. Tired of putting myself last. Tired of giving all I have only to get nothing in return. Tired of the tears, and tired of feeling like nothing is right. I just don't know what to do any more!
I don't even know who I am anymore. I used to be fun, energetic, happy, and outgoing. Now I am sad, tired, and boring. Where did the old me go? I should be loving life with my 3 amazing children. I should be happy to have a job, a family, a roof over my head, and food on the table.
I feel selfish when I put myself first, and when I take time for me I feel guilty because there is something else more important I should be doing. My poker face smile is fading day by day, and getting harder and harder to maintain. I need to fix this! I just don't know how!