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Worst Monday Ever

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

the only thing I did right was exercise for 45 minutes.

ran a red light. $480 gone

my schedule for work only involves 3 days out of 24 possible days.

job market is slim to none for my position.

if second job doesn't come through, may have to turn to criminal activity to get by. (moonshine anyone?)

Seriously, can it get any worse????

I wish I could go back to school on scholarship for a job as a respiratory therapist. I wish I was in a long term relationship with someone who could support me while i do this.

wish my life wasn't so messed up right now.

I couldnt even enjoy my workout because I had to fuss at the kids to shower.

I have never felt so alone in all my life like I do now.

Surprisingly enough, I don't feel like raiding the refrigerator.

I am just sitting here, crying about no food in the fridge or cabinets, wondering if my bank accounts will survive the changeover from the old to the new bank, if we will have a home for thanksgiving.

super stressful monday is more like it....

off to drink water, shower and cry, read my bible, and pray the whole time, till i cry myself to sleep...

hope your Monday was better than mine, and would love to hear about it...feel so alone right now....

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    thanks kym :)
    2410 days ago
    I agree with the others you have to trust God! Even when it looks like you are at the bottom just know He's still right there, He hasn't left you. The Word of God says ask and it shall be given unto you (Matt 7:7), have you asked for those things which you seek and if you have the next step is to have faith in God that He will provide them for you. Just remember faith and doubt can't live together.

    If you ever need to talk I'm here!
    2410 days ago
    thanks chunkymonkey111 and ourmamam!!!
    2410 days ago
    You are not alone, and you can count me in for a bottle of moonshine. Just tell me how much per bottle and where to send the check.
    Keep praying and give these problems to God every night before you go to bed...he's up all night anyway. Asking questions like "can it get any worse" is, according to my late grandmother, "an invitation to the devil himself to enter into your knock that off!" LOL (You'll notice her words in quotes.)
    It is at times like these that listening carefully through prayer will really pay off. Make time for it and trust that He will lead you where you're supposed to be and then go, and do. We control nothing, although we think we do, but sincerely we live out His plan for us. Listen carefully, you are His and He will provide.
    2410 days ago
    A word of advice...When things look bad always remember to completely hand all your problems to god and he will handle them for you....Here we go all you have to say is GOD i cant handle it anymore then say I will hand it all to you and believe that you should let go because he will take care of you....I myself have been at this point too. The blessing that followed were unbelievable... I never felt alone again...God was always and is always by my side...He is the one in charge just let it all go...Wish you well.
    2411 days ago
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