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Coming clean

Monday, October 17, 2011

OK not having such a good day eating wise. I went out with the family this weekend and took some pictures. When I went home I was looking through the pictures and was so unhappy with what I saw. I thought I did pretty well after having my son. But her it is a year later and about the past 5 months my motivation is totally gone. My eating is all aver the place. Some days I totally restrict my eating, other days I can't seem to stop. I feel completly out of control, unfocused and unmotivated. I looked at these pictures and thought that can't be me, no way. That's what I look like now. I felt complete and utter disgust.

Ok.. I guess it's time to come clean. I have been giving a half ass effort, my eating has been lest them clean , and I have been avoiding looking at myself, weighing myslef or measuring myself. I have made some half hearted attempt to get focused but then ...well life gets in the way and I use it as an excuse to give up.

Ok here's my plan so far
(1)Tonight I will work on a more detailed goal statement,
(2)I have appealed to sucessful friends to help advise me,
(3)I will be more consistance tracking my food and fitness.

Having two kids it's difficult to consistantly carve out time but I will make this work.
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  • no profile photo CD1919934
    Hi Melissa,

    Well lack of motivation I know exactly what you mean. I hit the wall every so often and its hard getting back on track. But in the positive view is that when you get re-motivated and back on track things gets easier especially when you start to see results again.

    My advice would be start tracking your food again. Sometimes it takes seen it on paper to get you mad enough to want to change especially if you see you are way off track.

    Don't stress yourself over the number on the scale. As you know the number dont come back down fast enough compare to going up. Try to pay attetion on other ways to track. Such as measurements and the way feel about yourself and energy level.

    And its ok to cheat here and there as long you dont go overboard and if you do go overboard dont beat yourself over and over about it because you cant change what you already did. Trust me to me this is the hardest of all.

    And maybe try add the little ones on activites as well.

    I hope I could help,
    Daiane emoticon
    3472 days ago
  • VANYELMOON
    You can do this and I am here to help :) Working around life is always a challenge but I know you will find a way.

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    3472 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9900916
    Sounds like a great plan! emoticon
    3472 days ago
  • ANNTORR53
    You will be fine. You have take a HUGE step. Looking at yourself and admitting that something has to change. I see so much of myself in the words you have written.

    Hang in there.
    3472 days ago
  • SETAGOAL1
    Don't give up on yourself. You are the only one that can make it happen for you. You have the power to succeed or fail.

    You can chosen to succeed.

    Janet
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    3472 days ago
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