Monday, October 17, 2011
OK not having such a good day eating wise. I went out with the family this weekend and took some pictures. When I went home I was looking through the pictures and was so unhappy with what I saw. I thought I did pretty well after having my son. But her it is a year later and about the past 5 months my motivation is totally gone. My eating is all aver the place. Some days I totally restrict my eating, other days I can't seem to stop. I feel completly out of control, unfocused and unmotivated. I looked at these pictures and thought that can't be me, no way. That's what I look like now. I felt complete and utter disgust.
Ok.. I guess it's time to come clean. I have been giving a half ass effort, my eating has been lest them clean , and I have been avoiding looking at myself, weighing myslef or measuring myself. I have made some half hearted attempt to get focused but then ...well life gets in the way and I use it as an excuse to give up.
Ok here's my plan so far
(1)Tonight I will work on a more detailed goal statement,
(2)I have appealed to sucessful friends to help advise me,
(3)I will be more consistance tracking my food and fitness.
Having two kids it's difficult to consistantly carve out time but I will make this work.