OOO and ARG!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
My baby is 1 month and 4 days old and is totally gorgeous! So I have 2 very beautiful girls and am thoroughly blessed. Being a bit sensible about my weight has really paid off and I have already lost my pregnancy weight and a couple of extra lbs to boot without even trying.
But my shape is completely different so whilst I should be happy I am actually really frustrated with my body. My fat and maternity clothes hang off me and Andy laughs at my builders bum as nothing will stay up. Whilst all my thinner clothes dont fit the way they should as I am still all paunchy around my upper abdomen whilst my waist (around my belly button) has actually shrunk. Meanwhile my breasts are huge and really upsetting as they hurt all the time and I have nothing that will come remotely close to fitting them.
So yay! and arg at the same time. Although I want to take my time and not pressure myself to loose weight as we are also trying to move house/ finish my Phd and adjust to having our new little family I am desperate to try and be a little more proactive with my weight but worry I seem to eat too many or too few calories and cant get into my stride with a consistent food intake/tracking. Equally I really want to start doing a bit more exercise but dont know where to find the time, or if I should wait until my 6 week check up. Either way I have got myself a copy of wii Zumba to cheer me up and am hoping that I will get a chance to wiggle around the living room in secret when Andy goes back to work this week. Wish me luck!