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Friday, October 14, 2011

Get ready for some rambling...

As a teenager I hated my body, though I was fit I always viewed myself as fat because I as a teen I was tall with womanly curves and it may be the Indian in me but I put on 'bulky' muscle relatively easy, I felt like an Amazonian Women! Not tiny and pretty like the other girls, which is what I desired. If only I had known what a blessing this body type was/is. Yet, I spent my early twenties looking up to 'thinspos' and attempting anorexia, which looking back is insane because I did have an eating disorder, binge eating but never purging. I maintained a 'healthy' weight for the most part until I became pregnant which I took as a free for all, sadly, I gained a lot of weight and lost more muscle than Id like to admit. After having my daughter I lost the first 20 lbs through starvation, breastfeeding, and daily walks. When I did try to workout I only brought myself injuries. Then I found sparkpeople which brought out the athlete in me, I focused on calories in, calories out and lost an additional 30 lbs along with gaining back a significant amount of muscle.
Which is where I am at today, in the right frame of mind. Where my body is as strong as my mind will allow it to be. Where I STFU and just do it, then do it again! I view strong as beautiful, I am developing definition in my legs, my arms, my stomach and I fkn LOVE IT! I've lost the weight I set out to lose and now I am ready for the next stage of fitness *squeeeeee* I am giving myself permission to no longer focus on the scale to determine my progress but my strength, my speed, and my endurance. I sound like a damn athlete again!
Yesterday I graduated from my 9 lbs dumbbells to a 15 lbs set!!! Im a fkn animal!
I have a love for Bikram Yoga, Swimming laps, running 3-5k, Treading water for 30+ min, Jump Rope, Kick boxing, Core floor workouts, p90x, killing my legs with 100+ lunges, squats, lifting weights til I feel like crying or throwing up... and I do all this while being a mommy. Cali got her first set of 1 lbs weights and yes, she loves to work out right along with me everyday :] I also fuel my body in the ways it deserves, no Hot Dogs for this Amazonian Women!

Last night I began to think 'what are you getting yourself into, Siena?' Not why, just what? My fitness tumblr is filled with crossfit fitspirations.... but what on earth is crossfit? So I looked it up, and Im still a bit confused but pretty much its exactly what Ive been doing... it's also and this shocked me "CrossFit is the principal strength and conditioning program for many police academies and tactical operations teams, military special operations units, champion martial artists, and hundreds of other elite and professional athletes worldwide."

Well that's intimidating isn't it? It also sounds like a challenge to me, and this girl loves a good challenge!

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  • TXLADY110
    Congrats on the muscle mass, I feel ya on the being a big girl to tall and husky to be feminine. I avoided lifting weights and building muscle because I did not want to look to manly...

    2441 days ago
    HAHA, I love the image at the end of this blog so much I just may print it out for my wall.

    I love your spirit!
    2441 days ago
  • GHK1962
    Ohhh.....crossfit is FREAKIN AWESOME. I don't do it myself, as I already have a gym membership (there are actually crossfit gyms.) A Sparkfriend of mine (CHAOSTHEORY635) does crossfit...and she is an animal. When you do start it let us know . . .that is suuuccchhhh an awesome program. It will kick your butt...but in a good way. Your hands will get shredded too . . . but in my book, that's a bonus!

    As for the blog itself. ALRIGHT!!! You sound super up . . . and that is great to see.
    2441 days ago
    All I can say after reading this blog is that if I ever need someone to protect me as I walk down a dark alley, I am calling Siena.

    Every time I read your workouts, I am tired. Embrace that part of you as it makes you who you are. Allow your body to transform - it will tell you when it has had enough.

    And, let me know when you are walking down the street - so I can cross over to be protected. Amazonian women are fierce (and scary)!!
    2441 days ago
    Rock that body girl. Your strength is beautiful. Your totally awesome! :)
    2441 days ago
    Hahaaha! I LOVE that clip! I totally agree! Strong IS beautiful! You go, girl! emoticon
    2441 days ago
    You are a DYNAMO! My grandson David also has his own 1 lb weights which he calls his "mussos" (muscles). He uses them while I do my at home work outs.

    I do have to disagree with your cute little statement at the end of your blog. I look sweaty, hot, red-faced and my hair usually is sticking to my scalp after a work out, but I absolutely ALWAYS look cute! emoticon
    2441 days ago
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