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Having A Moment

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I don't know what is going on, but I am pissed off right now. Pissed at myself for letting myself get to this point, for not being strong enough to stop myself or make the changes that I know I have needed to make for a long time, for being weak. I am disgusted with myself for making bargains with myself that I know I will never keep, like "I'll start on Monday, this weekend is my Farewell to Bad Habits". I am sick to my stomach. I am embarrassed of and for myself. I am ashamed that my wife has to put up with the fact that I have done so much damage to myself that I can barely function. Right now I want to cry, but I am sitting at my desk and so I can't.

Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. but right now I don't think I deserve to.
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  • SPARKPEOPLE63
    Let's take one day at a time. Do not beat your self -up. That is not going to get you the results you want. Set some small goals and make a plan to get there. Life is to enjoy not waste so celebrate the little things in life. Remember your sparks family is here to support you. Let's get started now not tomorrow.
    2444 days ago
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