Tests results are not good!
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
I got the results and I have nodules on my lungs that have spread to my liver and lymph nodes, consistant with lung cancer. I am scared! Of course, it has to be confirmed with a biopsy still.
He gave me a prescription for Zyban to help me stop smoking. I think to myself, I never want to smoke again, and then in the same thought, I think what difference does it make now?
I am devasted, especially for my children. They just went through this with their dad and he died 3 years ago from lung cancer.
Please pray for my sisters and brothers and my children. Especially my kids, they already went through this once and I don't know if they can handle it again!
I think if I quit smoking, and eat right, and exercise regularly, I can make myself strong enough to handle the chemotherapy better. And maybe a healthy body can fight the cancer better, who knows?
I really hate to tell this kind of thing in a blog, but on the other hand, it helps to process it before my family gets home from work, when I plan on telling them tonight.
I just really felt like I had to tell someone!
Thanks for listening, spark friends!