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Tests results are not good!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I got the results and I have nodules on my lungs that have spread to my liver and lymph nodes, consistant with lung cancer. I am scared! Of course, it has to be confirmed with a biopsy still.
He gave me a prescription for Zyban to help me stop smoking. I think to myself, I never want to smoke again, and then in the same thought, I think what difference does it make now?
I am devasted, especially for my children. They just went through this with their dad and he died 3 years ago from lung cancer.
Please pray for my sisters and brothers and my children. Especially my kids, they already went through this once and I don't know if they can handle it again!
I think if I quit smoking, and eat right, and exercise regularly, I can make myself strong enough to handle the chemotherapy better. And maybe a healthy body can fight the cancer better, who knows?
I really hate to tell this kind of thing in a blog, but on the other hand, it helps to process it before my family gets home from work, when I plan on telling them tonight.
I just really felt like I had to tell someone!
Thanks for listening, spark friends!
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  • SIMPLE_TAILOR
    Keeping you in my prayers.
    2832 days ago
  • AFRESHSTART2
    Oh Suz, I am sorry that you are going through such difficult time now. I will keep you and family in my prayers for a favorable outcome! We are here for you!
    2834 days ago
  • PEPPERMINT125
    Suz, I had cancer almost two years ago and I know what a shock it was. My advice is accept all the support and help that is offered, even when you think you don't need it. It was very important to my husband, sister, daughter and friends that they come with me to treatments and procedures occasionally. Also, you are the priority now. Get all the medical treatment you need. Get second opinions if you aren't sure about things. Ask lots of questions. Try to keep as positive as you can. Keeping a positive attitude that you will come through this helps a great deal. Keep exercising when you are up to it. But when you don't feel up to it, allow yourself to relax, sleep, etc.

    You will be in my prayers and thoughts as you go through this. I didn't smoke, but I know that trying to give it up must be really hard as you deal with cancer. I would recommend joining support groups. There are some great support groups for cancer. emoticon
    2835 days ago
  • MINDA31807
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    2836 days ago
  • MOMTONOAH
    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry you're going through such a scary time. emoticon
    2836 days ago
  • MOUNTAINMERMAID
    emoticon Dear Clover Sister!
    DITTO What Everyone has written!
    Prayers coming Your way!
    2836 days ago
  • MTULLY
    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon
    2837 days ago
  • MIAJOEB
    I just want you to know that I will be praying for your recovery..
    Ask for an alleviation of suffering and healing of your infirmities

    2837 days ago
  • SEWINGMAMACDS
    I was reading in Philippians this morning....I am praying this verse for you right now.
    "And the peace of God, which surpasses every thought, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7 HCSB

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    2837 days ago
  • DAVEYSHADOW
    Blog all you want, we are here for you! emoticon Thinking things through like this will help you process and deal with it and help with your future plans. You are right that having a helathy fit body can only help you with your treatment.
    2837 days ago
  • MELIVA
    Oh my. Your courage inspires me, but I am with MISS_VIV; let's pray for the best possible outcome from the biopsy. Thoughts and prayers coming your way.
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    Mel
    2837 days ago
  • BYEFATNANNY
    Yes scary news, but we'll all hope for the best for you and your family. They and we will be here to support you. Stay healthy, be healthy, we'll listen to you blog, blog, blog anytime. emoticon
    2838 days ago
  • NYS_EMT
    I am so sorry to hear this!!! Thoughts and prayers your (and your children's) way! The good news is this: There is a guy here in my town who is recovering from lung cancer and he was stage 4 when diagnosed and he's doing better every day! They have made HUGE advances in cancer care even in the last 3 years! Prayers for a speedy recovery!
    2838 days ago
  • SWEETMAGNOLIA2
    Suz, my heart goes out to you as you are processing this news. I know that you know God is very near to you. He promises to never leave or forsake you no matter what you may be feeling. He gives strength each day as we need it. Don't worry about tomorrow because He will give you what you need at that time. Do what you can each day to keep your immune system as strong as you can, so it can fight for you against this virus. People have beat this if, indeed, you do have cancer. I will be praying for you and your family, and especially your children as you have asked. And please don't think it strange to post this news in your blog. For a year now we have been sharing stuff here that we don't always feel comfortable sharing elsewhere. We look here for counsel and encouragement. My sweet friend, know you are not alone in this. I (we) are here for you anytime.
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    2838 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/12/2011 8:43:15 PM
  • MELLIL
    O Father God, please wrap this dear child of Yours in Your big strong comforting arms and hold her. Lord, let your Spirit strengthen her in body, mind, spirit and soul! If this is, indeed lung cancer she is going to need alllllllll the Super POWER You can give her to fight this evil demon! But soothe her spirit Lord. Remind her minute by minute of Your great love for her and all of Your promises. Our prayer, of course, Father is for complete 100% healing throughout her body and we knOW that You CAN do it Lord! We beg that it is Your will.

    Lord, be with her family too. This is just such devastating news, and especially for her children who already lost a parent to this dreadful disease. But Lord, FILL this FAMILY with HOPE! And peace Lord! Your peace. Your peace that surpasses ALL understanding! Spirit, filter that peace through them now. Let them all know your strength! Let them stand unified against the demon, and FIGHT this right along with Sue! Help THEM to be HER strength when she can't do it alone. Help them to pray with and for her daily, hourly, minute by minute Lord. And Lord, if ANY are faltering in their faith, please let this reel them IN and do NOT let it push them away! THIS family NEEDS you NOW!!! More than ever!

    Please, God... BLESS Sue... and bless her family too. Do it to YOUR glory Lord, in the name of Your Son, Jesus -- our SAVIOR, I pray. Amen.
    2838 days ago
  • MISS_VIV
    Suz, I am so sorry your results were not good. But there is a biopsy required of course. Let's pray really hard for good results from that. Eating good and getting plenty of rest will make you stronger and more able to cope with what may lie down the road. Please keep positive thoughts, medical personnel have made mis-diagnoses before. The Zyban should help with the stopping smoking and every step you take to take care of yourself will help with the outcome. I know you are scared, devastated and uncertain, so we will pray and keep positive thoughts for you and your family. If you want to talk to someone further, do not be afraid to call me. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2838 days ago
  • TURTLETALK
    I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Good luck we are all rooting for you.
    2838 days ago
  • TERRIPAL1
    Oh my goodness you must be scared! You are so brave for posting and sharing this emoticon !
    I think it's a great idea to eat healthy for chemo you do need a strong body and a good attitude!
    Good Luck in your struggle I will pray for all your family and my thoughts and prayers go to you too! emoticon
    2838 days ago
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