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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I'm in a hard place. Son home on fall break so routine is disrupted. CANNOT SLEEP, and I mean, really not 2-3 hours a night, MAX, and this for ages on end now. I am so bleary eyed I can't put two thoughts together, never mind execute a consciously healthy routine.

The last few days I have felt myself fading to the place of "I don't care". I HATE that place; that's the place I used to live. It is sometimes easy, but it is also ugly and unhappy. I simply REFUSE to live there again. I have lost 60 pounds and I'll be damned if I'm going back because my body is being mean to me...NO...I will win this thing!

I am overindulging in less than great food choices this week, and the pool is freezing so no swimming. With son home, I don't feel comfortable doing my exercise dvds, but I am heading out for the second day in a row for a long and strenuous walk. I did so yesterday out of sheer desperation, and it flushed out a bunch of bloat that was further weighing me down. (Unfortunately, it did not aid my sleep). Today, I intend to flush out some more sluggish bloat. And I will keep doing this until son is back at at school , and the heat is on in the pool, and I can sleep, and the world is right side up again. Until then, I will use new tricks. Cos I'll be damned if I'm goin' back....
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    I hope you've been able to get some sleep since you posted this. I haven't been on Spark lately so missed the blog. You did a great job of finding a way to exercise even though your usual routine was out of whack!!! I hope you're feeling better and back into your regular routine :).
    2369 days ago
  • YIWEN39
    Well done on taking those long walks, that's great! About your sleep, have you joined the better sleep challenge? I did, and to be perfectly honest, the actual team/challenge didn't help me that much, but it motivated me to look online and I found this Fitness article about 5 Yoga exercises to do in bed at night, and I sleep much better now. I posted a thread and a link if you check out the Better sleep challenge team. And maybe your Doc could help? You can't let that go on for too long!
    Take good care of yourself!
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    2379 days ago
    I know that has got to be hard. I've had problems with insomnia, and it makes staying on track HARD. Just rest if you feel you need it, and when you're up to it, walking outside might eventually start to help. Have you tried melatonin?
    2382 days ago
    Wishing the world was right for you, this instant!
    2382 days ago
    I hope you can get some rest. I don't do anything well when I'm tired. Good for you for working around the obstacles!
    2383 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    That's the spirit. I have been thinking of you. I am wishing you sweet, sweet sleep and lots of it. emoticon
    2383 days ago
  • GINA180847
    I hope soon you can get enough sleep and the exercise you need. It is hard I know when the routine is interupted .
    2383 days ago
    I have had trouble sleeping since I was like 5 years, really! I am kind of immune to over the counter sleep meds but I still take them, not sure if you have tried those, but they are not habit forming. Sometimes I take them and sometimes I don't. Just depends if I am having those feelings. Also try Melatonin it is a natural sleep aid, and it worked for me for awhile.

    When I was going through my divorce I could not take it and had the doc prescribe me something, as I was doing the same thing, only sleep liking 2-3 hours per night. Again, not habit forming, when it is used to get over the hump.

    And I know you have probably heard this before, but hormones contribute to insomnia, we are just at that age!

    Hope that helps...

    2383 days ago
  • THOCK1
    I hope you can figure out the sleep thing. Have you talked to your doctor about it? He/she might be able to help.

    Keep on keepin' on. You're doing great, even with inadequate sleep. If you can do this well with inadequate sleep, what else can you do? Pretty near anything.
    2383 days ago
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