Giving myself a mulligan
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
I realized last night I am almost at the exact same weight I was at last year. At first I was upset. Then I decided I am taking a mulligan. One year of staying in a relative weight range is not a bad thing at all. I had a lot of ups and downs starting with my grandmothers death that will be one year ago next month to the day. The year is over. The negativity is over. I am cleaning house. I am actively taking steps to change my career. It isn't just a job but the industry that makes me happy so I am moving on. I hate sales. I am not an extrovert and that is what this job requires. I don't want to keep fighting it. I want to be a writer. It is that simple. I love food so I need to find a way to combine my passions. I want to own my own business and be free from the rat race. It is funny how often when you get what you thought you wanted it isn't what you thought it would be.
I am ok with this past year. I am not where I wanted to be but I learned so much about myself and who I want to be and what I want for myself. I found my strength. I found me. That is the best thing that could have happened. I learned my happiness is not in a number on a scale. It is in a feeling. If I set goals and follow them I will be successful and cutting out the bad things is the most important part.
Today is a new day and a new year. Moving on.