I'm in a Rut and Really Disappointed in Myself
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Until about a month ago I was making WL progress and losing weight at a slow steady pace and then I somehow seemed to lose my enthusiasm even though I was still Sparking like mad and I continued to encourage others to do what I haven't been able to do for myself--eat within my calorie range and exercise more. I usually do eat Healthy but just too much of it! I'm given 1200-1550 calories a day and most days I eat at the upper range or go over it. I'm mainly doing chair marching for my exercise and I know it's better than nothing but it doesn't burn too many calories away. I need to find more cardio and strength training exercises that I enjoy and do them. I will be checking out some new exercise videos on some Team Pages to find something I will and can do on a regular basis.
Until about a month ago I had a great Accountable Buddy and she really helped me focus and "keep on my toes" and I was staying within my calorie range so I was losing weight then. I haven't lost a pound in about a month and it's because I eat too much. I'm doing myself a disservice as I'd feel so much better with less weight on my aching knees and back. My Dr. even told me that losing a significant amount of weight was the best single thing I could do for myself as it would ease up the knee & back pain I deal with daily. I want to be more mobile and be able to really live life again but it seems I'm my own worse enemy.
I was dealing with some sad family news yesterday and you know how I chose to deal with it? I made a batch of homemade Snickerdoodle cookies to drown my sadness. It was a Spark recipe with only 50 calories a cookie but the cookies with that amount of calories must have been quarter size--and mine were about the size of a small saucer! I must have plowed through a half dozen of those cookies and of coarse when I weighed myself this morning I had gained a pound and it kind of shook me up as I know I'll never lose any weight with that "don't care" mentality. We are only given one Life here on Earth and why can't I make it a healthy and good one for myself. I feel I not only am hurting myself but all the people who love me and want me around for a long time.
I am always inspired and encouraged when I read those great success stories and I want that for myself. The choice is up to me. I know no one can do this for me but me. So, this morning I went searching for my Spark book and it's time for me to re-read it and get on the right Track again. Just reading this wonderful book has really helped me in the past set doable goals and give me back my Spark again.
I am in the Fall 5% Challenge and I'm going to make just losing 5% of my weight in a couple of months my biggest goal. For me that means losing 13#s and with the right mental attitude and all the tools on Spark and with a new commitment and all my wonderful supportive friends I know I can do it! I know what to do thanks to Spark now the ball is in my court and I've got to pick it up and run, well maybe jog, with it!!