Monday, October 10, 2011
Ok Sparkfriends. I'm back and starting over AGAIN. I feel so lame posting this blog. I feel like every time I post something here I'm saying how I'm back and I'm starting over and going to be committed and what not.
UGH. I'm so disgusted with myself. I'm so freaking lazy. I let any little thing throw me off track. I've been working late a lot since September so I've just been eating whatever and not working out like I'm supposed to. Sleeping in late. And even when I do wake up on time I just sit around playing on my iPod before I get dressed for work. It's like I have zero motivation to get this damn weight under control, but plenty of longing to reach my goals.
Ugh. I don't even know how to get my mind right so that I can actually stick to what it is I need to do. It's taking a toll on everything. In June my boyfriend and I celebrated our two year anniversary. Two years ago I was 10 lbs lighter and supposed to be getting into shape. No progress at all.
I'll be 30 next September. I really don't want to start the next decade of my life like this--outta shape. Unmotivated to reach my goals. Not confident in myself.
Ok enough ranting. Good news: I worked out this morning. I tracked my breakfast: 1/4 cup egg beaters; 1/2 slice colby cheese, 2 slices of turkey bacon and some dannon light and fit strawberry banana yogurt. I've had some water. But I have to step it up.
I'm restarting the Oxy Elite Pro. I haven't seen any results, but I blame that more on my lack of exercise and bad eating habits than the pills. I'm going to do what I'm supposed to do and then judge them fairly.
I took some 'BEFORE' pics. But really I'm too chicken and embarrassed to share them. I'm at 175 lbs. AGAIN.
Ok enough with the down talk. Sorry for ranting so much. I hope you guys are doing ok. I need to check in here more to stay on track. Thanks for reading!