Monday, October 10, 2011

Ok Sparkfriends. I'm back and starting over AGAIN. I feel so lame posting this blog. I feel like every time I post something here I'm saying how I'm back and I'm starting over and going to be committed and what not.


UGH. I'm so disgusted with myself. I'm so freaking lazy. I let any little thing throw me off track. I've been working late a lot since September so I've just been eating whatever and not working out like I'm supposed to. Sleeping in late. And even when I do wake up on time I just sit around playing on my iPod before I get dressed for work. It's like I have zero motivation to get this damn weight under control, but plenty of longing to reach my goals.

Ugh. I don't even know how to get my mind right so that I can actually stick to what it is I need to do. It's taking a toll on everything. In June my boyfriend and I celebrated our two year anniversary. Two years ago I was 10 lbs lighter and supposed to be getting into shape. No progress at all.

I'll be 30 next September. I really don't want to start the next decade of my life like this--outta shape. Unmotivated to reach my goals. Not confident in myself.

Ok enough ranting. Good news: I worked out this morning. I tracked my breakfast: 1/4 cup egg beaters; 1/2 slice colby cheese, 2 slices of turkey bacon and some dannon light and fit strawberry banana yogurt. I've had some water. But I have to step it up.

I'm restarting the Oxy Elite Pro. I haven't seen any results, but I blame that more on my lack of exercise and bad eating habits than the pills. I'm going to do what I'm supposed to do and then judge them fairly.

I took some 'BEFORE' pics. But really I'm too chicken and embarrassed to share them. I'm at 175 lbs. AGAIN.

Ok enough with the down talk. Sorry for ranting so much. I hope you guys are doing ok. I need to check in here more to stay on track. Thanks for reading!
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    Do you EVER sound just like me! lol. I just got back on SP yesterday and I am going through the exact same thing. I will be 30 in a year and a few months (January 2013) and I just cannot be unhealthy. I'm with you. I have lost a few times and then got side-tracked and gained it all right back. Here are my two suggestions (and what I will be trying to do this time around): (1) stop the bad-talking yourself RIGHT NOW! you are awesome! and still a beautiful woman no matter what you weigh. its okay to fail however many times. success = the # of times you failed + one more try. So keep giving it one more try.....and it will give you success at some point. (2) PLAN AHEAD! Like you, once something throws me out of my routine, I'm off track and I can't for the life of me get back on. So, instead of allowing the unexpected to catch us off guard and ruin what we've worked so hard for, we will be prepared for it. Its like car insurance.....just in case something goes wrong, you're covered. For example, I also have long stints where I am working late and sleeping late and away from home for HOURS. So one of my plans is that whenever I cannot eat accorinding to my plan, I have a list of fast food meals that I am allowed. I researched the calorie and fat contents ahead of time, so there will be no mistakes. Make sense? There are other things you can do to help yourself be prepared when something comes around to throw you off track. Be prepared and stay faithful. You can do it! I know I will!
    3497 days ago
    Thanks Schen! Can always count on you for an encouraging word!
    3504 days ago
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    Hey, fall down 7 times, stand up 8! What's important is that you're back - regardless of how many times. Don't get discouraged. It's a constant struggle. Could you get an accountability buddy in real life that would perhaps help with the working out? Just a suggestion. Today's victory is logging into spark, exercising and logging your food. One step at a time and you'll get to where you need to go!
    3504 days ago
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