Time to let go
Sunday, October 09, 2011
My fiancé took me shopping this weekend. I had no clothes for work since I got rid of everything last year that didn't fit and I was wearing the same 2 outfits to work everyday. People were starting to notice lol. I am lucky I have someone so supportive in my life and he went with me and was really honest with me about what fit and what didn't. I got a little upset because things are not fitting the way I want them too and the way they were just a few months ago. I had a big aha moment. I have basically just been living in the past. I have not truly let go of my morbidly obese self and expected this regain to happen. I was counting on it. How can I be successful if I sit everyday and just wait to fail? In the beginning I was just going by day to day making good choices and as I had success it was almost too easy. I just knew I would regain the weight because I had never been successful before so why would this be different?
With an attitude like this of course I got stuck. I am letting go of that person. I have not been over 300 lbs in a over a year now. Not even close. I am not going back and I have proven that. It is ok to lose the rest now. It is ok to be happy. I am not in danger of failing. I choose to move on.