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Saturday, October 08, 2011

Yesterday I went shopping for Halloween decorations but I figured while at the mall I would pick up a couple of things for myself. My pants had been falling of me (a thought that made me happy, I had pushed away the reminder that they were 2 sizes bigger than I normally to wear) so I thought I would pick up a belt. Without trying it one I bought the biggest on in the store and moved on. At the next store I tried on a bra, again the biggest one in the store but it didn’t fit. When I got out the saleslady asked the customary “how did everything fit” I told her it was too small and she answered “Maybe you should try a plus size store.” And with that I was done shopping, I went home in tears. When I got home I tried to put my new belt on only to find that it didn’t even fit around me. 
I’m not really sure what happened, ok that’s a lie. I know what happened. I buy healthy fruits and veggies every week and then they end up going bad and being thrown out because take-out is easier.  And now here I am at 220lbs, being told to try the ‘plus size store’
Which brings me back to SparkPeople, feeling dejected, embarrassed and depressed about my size.
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  • MISSY1013
    It's not an easy task to loose weight but as "gettingthinner2" mentioned you did come back. That is half of the battle. You will be where you want to be in time and during the journey we'll be here to help.

    3583 days ago
    Don't be so hard on yourself! The important thing is that you DID come back!
    Pretend you are your best friend...would you berate her? One day at a time, it's
    all we can do! You are not alone and as my signature says, You only fail if you quit!
    3583 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8932233
    Hey girl,
    emoticon on taking a negative moment and turning it into motivation to do something positive!!
    I'm a student so eating out and ordering in are my go to mode. I do the exact same thing with the fruits and veggies every time I get on a health kick and almost every time they turn brown and yuck and I continue to get food elsewhere. For me, the way to break that cycle was to be a more realistic, smarter shopper. I like veggies and salads but often I don't know what to do with them so I started buying pre-packaged steam to cook veggies and ready to go salads. Id buy fruits that have already been sliced and just about anything else that I knew wouldn't take much effort (frozen meals, canned goods). I'm not enough of a foodie to complain about a difference in taste and besides the fact that I can save money and stay in my calorie range more than makes up for it!!
    Best of luck with your journey!
    3583 days ago
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