Whats been going on with me

Thursday, October 06, 2011

hello friends. I really am sorry that I have been so quiet. This just has been such a year for me. I have been trying to stay busy and do a lot of social things. Sometimes it is harder now 7 months later than when I first lost my husband.
I have been doing pretty well staying productive.
I have been riding bikes a lot and looking into new hobbies all of the time. I sometimes feel independent and strong, other times I feel like a weak mouse.
It is weird the whole grief thing. Any ways I just wanted to touch bases with you all wonderful people
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    Karlyn~ Good to hear from you! I have lost people close to me and the first year IS the hardest and some days are better than other ones. I miss them but they are always in my heart . God is always there for us and hears us . Keep up the strength of living each day. emoticon ~~Betsy
    PS~ I am hardly on SP that much either,but know that we're all here for you,whether you post a blog or not!
    3414 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/8/2012 12:03:00 PM
    Great to hear from you again!
    3440 days ago
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    Love YOU!
    3454 days ago
    I wouldn't be too concerned about how often you post a blog. You just keep on working your way towards your own variety of peace however you can. I think about you off and on and I'm glad you are keeping yourself busy. Take extra care of yourself during the upcoming Holidays. I'm sending you some peace and love. emoticon
    3477 days ago
    Glad to hear from you again. I'm glad you are finding ways to stay active, productive and connected in the midst of it all.

    It can be hard when the world goes on while you are still figuring out how to put things back together. There are no time lines or rule books, you just keep going and trying different things until your new life starts to feel more normal. Swings in energy and confidence are normal, but they sure feel weird. We're still out here praying for you.


    3518 days ago
    I know this has been a bad year for you and hope by now you are doing a little better. I think of you often. Stay strong and please check in so we will know how you are doing.

    Hugs to you and Donner emoticon
    3524 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/20/2011 7:57:41 PM
    The first year is always the hardest, but you are doing really well. It's good to hear from you again.

    3534 days ago
    Karlyn, it's great to hear from you! And there is not one thing about you that says "weak mouse" to me. You have met the challenges of this year with grace, dignity, and maturity.
    You are in my thoughts today!
    3534 days ago
    I couldn't even imagine going through that kind of loss, but I would imagine the first year to be the hardest. I'm glad you're keeping busy and taking care of you.
    Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way.
    3535 days ago
    Glad to hear from you Karlyn....it just takes time. Stay
    strong and on the days you fel like a mouse, know He is giving
    you strength.

    3536 days ago
    Good to hear from you!!!!

    3538 days ago
    Lovely to have you 'touch base' again! Glad to hear you are being so productive. Grief is quite a process, some days better than others, and you are doing really well!

    Keep well, have been thinking of you!

    3538 days ago
    I'm so glad you posted, I was just thinking of you the other day. Give yourself time to heal, it will take a while. Ups and downs make a lot of sense. Surround yourself with loving family and friends, and hopefully that will help you.
    3538 days ago
    Good to hear you are staying active! Keep up the good work!
    3538 days ago
    It's great to hear from you!

    3538 days ago
    I'm so glad to hear from you. I've been wondering how you're doing.

    3538 days ago
    I am so excited to hear from you and to see that you are doing better. Just take one day at a time. How's your sweet Donner????? I know he is a lot of company for you especially as you are dealing with the loss of your hubby. We are here for you when you want to talk or just need a hug.

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    3538 days ago
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    emoticon I understand it comes and goes. He'd want the best for you. You planning and staying involved is really healthy and I'm proud of you for that.
    3538 days ago
    Good to hear that you're doing ok. You're going through a big adjustment. I think you're doing well. emoticon
    3538 days ago
    Glad to hear from you. emoticon
    3538 days ago
    Wonderful to see you checking in with all of us - often thinking of you. It sounds very normal what you're describing - and how could it be otherwise, with such a healing that needs to occur slowly. Hugs to you and keep doing what you're doing!
    3538 days ago
    It's so nice to hear from you! I too have been wondering how you are doing. I understand how you can feel strong one moment and weak the next. Sending hugs to you!
    3538 days ago
    It's so nice to hear from you! I too have been wondering how you are doing. I understand how you can feel strong one moment and weak the next. Sending hugs to you!
    3538 days ago
    It it is any consolation, the first year is the hardest. Time really does heal, but it does take time. There is not shortcut.

    It is smart not to try to "skip over" or stuff your feelings. Be with them fully, even when they are not pleasant. I tried to suppress feelings of anger and sadness by becoming a workaholic--that was a very bad idea. After ending up with anxiety disorder, I had to go through months of counseling before I could even cope with life again. It would have been much better to scream and cry and kick a few doors and swear at the walls when those emotions came.

    Hang in there my friend, and know you husband remains with you in spirit at all times.
    3538 days ago
    Wishing you peace and serenity as you continue to greive your beloved husband.
    3538 days ago
    When I saw your name/blog title scrolling in the team stream today, I did a double take. Just yesterday I was searching for your page and blog and because I was missing a letter in the search, I couldn't find it or you.

    I was wondering how you were, what you'd been doing, how you'd been coping. Not because I'm curious but because since I first came upon your blog, my family medical history started a new chapter with breast cancer. No one died, but that diagnosis puts a scare and newfound respect for all things related to cancer right in the heart.

    Please keep posting as you feel it's right to do so. None of us know how much others care for us and about us, and how much we might be helping.
    3538 days ago
    I think about you all the time. I am so glad that you have such a great doggie for company and that you are staying busy. Sometimes I still can't believe your hubby is gone. I always read your blogs and the closeness you too shared is rare these days! My hubs and I are really close like that too so I can't imagine how you are doing it, but I commend you on your strength!! Keep us posted on things and hug that cute pups for me.
    3539 days ago
    Grief is a hard road. It is like the Spark mentality. Two steps forward and one step back. Just keeping trying and the hurt will get softer. You will always love him and have him in your heart. emoticon
    3539 days ago
    Good to hear you are doing okay!!! I think you are one heck of a strong woman!
    3539 days ago
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    It was so emoticon to receive notice of your blog today. I was just wondering how you were doing and hadn't gotten a chance to check. Know that it is perfectly normal for things to seem more difficult at this point in your grief journey. When I lost my son I thought after the first year it would be somewhat less difficult, but for me the second year was even harder than the first. I think the mind plays tricks on us. Anyway, I am happy to hear that you have been staying fairly productive and looking into new hobbies. I pray that you find ways to survive the holidays and this winter. Also know that you have many spark friends that are here if and when you need someone to boost you through an exceptionally difficult time. Many prayers and hugs are being sent your way! emoticon emoticon
    3539 days ago
    It's great to see you again, Karlyn! Yes, grief is such a complicated thing, isn't it? It IS good that you're keeping busy, though. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3539 days ago
    Grief really is a crazy thing; you can be doing fine one minute and the next dissolve into tears over seemingly nothing. It is a process, and it takes time, no two ways about it. Thank you for checking in here; I have been thinking of you and missing you. Know that you are loved and appreciated by many here (and elsewhere too, I'm quite sure!).

    3539 days ago
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