Peace Treaties, Comfy Couches, & No Sleep.
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
I think my insomnia is catching up with me. Well, I mean, it's always been a problem but now it's getting worse.
I haven't worked out since last Friday (until today that is) because I'm chronically exhausted. I have no idea if this makes sense but before I started working out my body had enough energy to get through the day. I would take naps pretty much everyday. Now that I'm working out, my mind is constantly alert and energetic and I want to do things. The problem is.....my body can't keep up with my mind now. I don't take naps unless I just can't fight it. I keep thinking if I don't take naps during the day my insomnia will be better. It doesn't seem to be helping. Now....all I do is sleep 3 hours a night and not even have a nap.
I realized this morning as I was doing incline sprints that my body just can't keep up with my mind. It's not a matter of being out of breath or not wanting to work out. My body isn't getting enough rest. I'm afraid if I don't workout that I'll ruin all the things I've been working on for the past 4 weeks.
Realizations tend to hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't just gradually understand things and that's how it was this morning. I've been trying to become more tuned in to what my body needs. I didn't eat breakfast this morning. I plan on making up for it though by eating throughout the day. I don't really know how this will effect me but....hey....I'm trying. The reason I didn't eat this morning was because after going to bed at midnight and waking up at 4:15 am, I finally fell back asleep at 8 am and woke up at 10 am. I then went and worked out in the cemetery.
While working out, my head started throbbing. I think it's because I haven't been eating enough calories lately and also the past couple days of horrendous water intake. I was also very dizzy. I cut my workout short and came back home.
I NEED SLEEP! I can't keep doing this. I'm running myself into the ground.
Right now...I want to lay back down and go to sleep. I'm sitting on a couch created by God Himself. It beckons me to fall asleep on it. My mind won't let me, though.
I wish my mind and body would come to some sort of agreement. I could be the mediator. I'll create a peace treaty. I'm pretty good at easing conflict. After all, I'm going to school to be a clinical psychologist. I should be freaking fantastic at solving my own problems.