I Feel Like An Old Lady
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Yes, I realize that I am only 39 years old. I feel like double that. Yesterday, Mom, Hailey & I went to Kohl's to buy Hailey some clothes for her birthday. I got so winded & light-headed that I had to sit down on the chairs outside of the dressing room. I was losing my voice & panting & wheezing & coughing. My mom is 62 & has way more energy than me. I feel like such a loser.
Matt is doing great!! He runs 4-7 miles 5 days a week. His new heart medication makes him feel better than he has in years. He lost 8 lbs this month. He is running a 10k on Sunday. He feels way younger than his 39 years. Yes, I am happy for him... BUT I am also jealous. I can't go running with him or even walk with him at this point. He doesn't go to the gym because he is running while the weather holds. I don't want to go to the gym by myself because I get light-headed & weak so I don't want to drive afterwards. I don't want to ask him for help because I don't want him to think I am a loser (or, worse, make me go to the doctor.)
My allergies are doing great now that I'm all of these drugs, but my asthma is worse than ever. I know there is nothing else wrong with my lungs because I've had a gazillion chest x-rays this past month. Maybe I just have a chest cold.
Well, Thanks for letting me vent!! I know I'm a whiny pain in the butt.
I AM going to track all of my food today though!!