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I Feel Like An Old Lady

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Yes, I realize that I am only 39 years old. I feel like double that. Yesterday, Mom, Hailey & I went to Kohl's to buy Hailey some clothes for her birthday. I got so winded & light-headed that I had to sit down on the chairs outside of the dressing room. I was losing my voice & panting & wheezing & coughing. My mom is 62 & has way more energy than me. I feel like such a loser.

Matt is doing great!! He runs 4-7 miles 5 days a week. His new heart medication makes him feel better than he has in years. He lost 8 lbs this month. He is running a 10k on Sunday. He feels way younger than his 39 years. Yes, I am happy for him... BUT I am also jealous. I can't go running with him or even walk with him at this point. He doesn't go to the gym because he is running while the weather holds. I don't want to go to the gym by myself because I get light-headed & weak so I don't want to drive afterwards. I don't want to ask him for help because I don't want him to think I am a loser (or, worse, make me go to the doctor.)

My allergies are doing great now that I'm all of these drugs, but my asthma is worse than ever. I know there is nothing else wrong with my lungs because I've had a gazillion chest x-rays this past month. Maybe I just have a chest cold.

Well, Thanks for letting me vent!! I know I'm a whiny pain in the butt.

I AM going to track all of my food today though!!

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  • AWOLF24
    emoticon I'm glad Matt is doing better but Claudia...I'm worried about you. That doesn't sound might want to consider checking things out with the doctor........
    2728 days ago
    Food is 80% of the equation. If you are 10 pounds heavier than you'd like to be that'll help you get there the most. Aside form might want to go to the Dr.'s. Allergies make me feel "looserish" as well. Who wants to hear us sneezing and wheezing? It's lame, but if OTC stuff isn't working you might want that Dr's visit so you can start exercising again, breathing free. emoticon Also when I do hard exercise it actually helps clear up whatever stuffiness I have, strange but you might try it under supervision.
    2729 days ago
    YOU are NOT a whiny pain in the butt. I do wonder if you have something else that is causing all of this.....hmmm.....

    I am so glad that Matt is doing better, but I am hoping that you will, too.

    I hope you can keep being positive. You bring a smile to my face many days here at SP. Thanks!!
    2729 days ago
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