Just sick today.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart.
It was my birthday this past Saturday. I turned 46. I am on so many medications, my mind is so mushy, I had to use a calculator to find out how old I am. I don't care. it don't matter.
my cat is dying. I am trying to do everything I can to save it, but I can only do so much finacially. I had to rush him in on Friday, brought him home Saturday, took him back on Monday. He is home again today. I have to give him sub-cutaneous fluids, meds and I still might have to put him down if he does not bounce back.
My husband is mad at me for spending as much money as I have on this. I can understand his point, but I don't think he has taken the time to listen to me either. I unplugged the phone. Can't talk about it anymore. He is on the road. I am here. Don't want to talk.
So, I have a sick stomach, a migraine, an angry husband, upset kids, a dying cat, and can't eat. don't want to eat. just want to vomit. just want to stay in bed.
So, I am here. I am watching Grey's Anatomy on DVD. and wishing my day would end so tomorrow will come, and end.
Thank you for letting me talk this out. I don't think it will make a difference in how my day will end, but, thank you.