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Just sick today.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Sometimes I feel like I am falling apart.

It was my birthday this past Saturday. I turned 46. I am on so many medications, my mind is so mushy, I had to use a calculator to find out how old I am. I don't care. it don't matter.

my cat is dying. I am trying to do everything I can to save it, but I can only do so much finacially. I had to rush him in on Friday, brought him home Saturday, took him back on Monday. He is home again today. I have to give him sub-cutaneous fluids, meds and I still might have to put him down if he does not bounce back.

My husband is mad at me for spending as much money as I have on this. I can understand his point, but I don't think he has taken the time to listen to me either. I unplugged the phone. Can't talk about it anymore. He is on the road. I am here. Don't want to talk.

So, I have a sick stomach, a migraine, an angry husband, upset kids, a dying cat, and can't eat. don't want to eat. just want to vomit. just want to stay in bed.

So, I am here. I am watching Grey's Anatomy on DVD. and wishing my day would end so tomorrow will come, and end.

Thank you for letting me talk this out. I don't think it will make a difference in how my day will end, but, thank you.

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  • CARRIE535
    You know, sometimes life just sucks! Now don't get me wrong, I'm not belittling your situation. What I am saying is that you feel like crap, it's OK to feel that way sometimes. Give yourself permission to cry, veg out, whatever you feel like you need to do to get through this situation. Remember in the back of your mind that it's temporary, live through it, survive, move on when it's time.
    Speaking as someone who has too much experience with enduring endurable things, sleep, rest and no chemical crutches ( alcohol, etc....they only make bad situations worse )
    2727 days ago
    Sorry about your cat i understand how you feel i went throughthis with my two dogs.You need to eat properly and look after yourself and think through what is best for your cat in the long run hugs Carol
    2729 days ago
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