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Set backs-Oh WOW!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Back to work began August 1st. Stress began to intensify, not only did we begin the school year, but we (Erik and I) started a new Home Care service at the end of July and we weren't used to them.. School actually started August 8th. At about the same time something was developing on my back and I didn't know that it would grow-nor could I see it. By my B'day it was already a concerning texture and size, not only that it was under my bra band. I scheduled an appointment with my doctor for the earliest appt (8/31) On 8/24 my sister VĂ©ronique arrived with her son, she's the one with the Gleal Cell brain tumor. Later that day her daughter arrived, no my office-computer zone was occupied and being used as a bedroom. My sister and her son left 8/29 and my niece left 9/2 but my two cousins from Belgium came on 9/1-they left the evening of the 10th. By this time I'd been away from my computer for some time, when the cousins were here we ate out a lot, so that they could experience a variety of foods, including Burger King. They also had Taco Bell and Chick fil A, but on their own. By this time I had gained 5 pounds and had not been logging foods or water regularly. There is no time at work, especially when I was trying not to bring papers home when I had company.
Today would have been my husband's 63rd birthday, and I'm struggling with his being gone-again, with Erik's slower improvement and my being behind at work, at spark peoples and with house cleaning.
Now I'm 7 pounds heavier, gained a few inches and am off my stride for logging foods and the minimal exercise I've maintained. I'm discouraged, disgruntled and disheartened. I had re-set my goal for 138 in early October, and now I'm further from it than a month ago-154 this morning.
My posted goals had been ignored for a month now. I need to get back on track-TODAY!
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  • BAKER1009
    Wow! Well, this happens to all of us. You know why it happened, and you also know how to fix it. You can do it!!
    So what was the conclusion with the bump on your back?? I hope it's nothing to serious!
    I'm glad your sister was able to come visit. How is her health?
    I imagine your husbands birthdays are hard, and other special days. Hang in there and know that you are loved by many!!

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    2432 days ago
    I have also been struggling lately and I know that in my case it is between school, having my grandmother move in (she has depression and alztimers, and on home hospice), keep up with the PT, and needing to get stuff done around the house including taking care of 4 animals.
    2432 days ago
  • JANET552
    You have been busy!! I so understand the school part. I hope you and Erik are adjusting to the home care service you have now and you find them valuable. Recovery isn't a straight line. I know you know that but I also know that we wish it could be more when we care so much. How's that growth? I am hoping for the best on that. I had a growth on my back that was in about the same spot and hurt like crazy -- it even hurt to walk. It turned out to just be a sebaceous cyst (it was huge) and easily removed. I understand how concerning it can be because you cannot see it well when it's there and with your sisters having cancer, I would have been scared. Did it turn out okay??

    How nice to have your sister come for a visit!! How nice to have relatives from Belgium come to visit!! How fabulous that you are ready to re-commit!! I too am struggling to track my food consistently. Starting tomorrow (the beginning of the week) I am planning a fast break goal to track for two weeks. Care to join me? It did work wonders to do that for giving up the salt shaker so I know I can do it. I know you can too!!
    2432 days ago
  • VSG1982
    Hi- Just passing through and your post name made it look like you could use some encouragement. Life is full of curveballs- No way can we always make tracking food/exercise our priority. I think the fact that you are committing to come back to Spark People after a break speaks volumes about the success you'll have. emoticon
    2432 days ago
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