10 years, 100 pounds... Where do I go from here?

Thursday, September 22, 2011

A reminder of how far I've come in 10 years...

I'm so hard on myself. And the truth is, there have been big ups and downs during these past 10 years. But I have kept this weight off for the most part. That's about 10 pounds per year. Not the best progress ever, but better than many people I know who have complained about their weight for the last 10 years and have never done anything about it.

When I fall off the wagon, it's so easy to forget how much I accomplished - and more importantly - that I'm COMPLETELY capable of changing myself even more if I so choose.

This summer was a transition for me. I didn't think moving would throw me off so much, but I should've known better! One thing I've learned for sure is that I need to maintain some semblance of a routine when in transitional periods, on vacation, moving, etc. This needs to be a rule for me, no matter what. Falling completely out of my routines forces me back into a depressive, anxiety ridden state, which makes it all the more difficult to get back to those healthy habits.

So here's where I'm at. I don't know how much I weigh because I don't have access to a scale. (This may be a good thing.) I will measure my body and go by that. And by how my clothes fit. They've gotten tighter in the last few weeks, but I know my body well enough to know that when I gain weight quickly, I can lose it pretty quickly too. After a certain point, it will become more difficult - but it won't be as difficult if I establish these habits:

1500 calories each day. Give or take 100 depending upon my physical activity.

2+ miles each day. Walking for first 2 weeks. Then adding sprints for next 4 weeks. Then hopefully a slow run to a fast run in the next 4 weeks.

Yoga. Pilates. Weight training. Body weight exercises.

1 cheat day/week - where I can indulge in treats like pizza, chocolate, ice cream without going overboard.

Aside from wanting to prove to myself I can do this, and to look slimmer and not as jiggly, I need this for my health. I'm almost 24, and while I'm still very young, I want to get into tip-top shape now, and maintain that throughout the rest of my life.

I've also been realizing that I think my frame is smaller than I realize, and it's always been covered by a significant layer of fat/flab. I consistently have cracking/pain in my ankles, knees and hips, and aside from being painful, it's quite annoying. It doesn't happen every day, by any means, but it happens often enough to be a noticeable problem.

Plain truth is: I need less fat on my frame, and more muscle.

BUT! I vow to be happy with my body no matter what. To love it. Because it is only from love that I can achieve true health. Nothing good comes from me battling and hating my body, my self.

So... here goes! :]

To health & fitness,
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  • no profile photo CD12072763
    Your blog is so interesting!! It is good to read about your strategies and find similarities in your thoughts to how I am feeling - as someone else has already said we are so hard on ourselves!

    Your photos are amazing - you are a natural beauty!
    3352 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6842331
    You are an inspiration to me - thank you for this blog - emoticon
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    3556 days ago
    wow great job and great tips
    3556 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5897697
    Hey girl, I love this blog of yours! I have been crying lately about how it's taken me almost 3 years to loose these twenty something lbs! I keep telling myself that this will always be my story! I will never get less than this. I believe I can though this is why I don't give up, I fall off and come back strong and go hard. This time I've really cranked things up. I'm working out longer and harder. I push myself. Anyways, this is wonderful to read. It doesn't matter the speed as long as it's done instead of complaining and only making it worse. THANK YOU for this blog, thank you it has proven to me that it's not a race and that I CAN DO THIS! You rock!!
    3556 days ago
  • CRYSTAL8488
    For some reason, we are always our biggest critics! Don't be so hard on yourself. You look SO beautiful!! You can get back on track, sounds like you have a good plan in place. Best wishes for you on your journey! emoticon

    3556 days ago
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