My motivation? My family tree
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Don't have a title for this one yet. There are so many points to make. Maybe by the end I'll figure out that title.
In the past week, life did what it does best... Got harder! I'm not complaining. Things could always be worse, and I thank God that I am able to deal with what needs done right now.
Last Thursday, while I had my Mom at the ER for her heart, my grandmother passed away (Daddy's side). She was 86 and had lived a sweet and faithful life. So much of who I am including my walk with the Lord I owe to her!! I know she's with the Lord now and so ends another chapter of my life.
My Mom was disabled with heart disease over 20 years ago. She had a major heart attack when she was only 33. (Women of this family tend to die young.) So for almost 25 years she's been living with literally half a heart. It's been hard, but she does have 3 daughters and 3 sisters close by. Fast forward to last week...
Basically, the years of cardiac events have taken their toll on her heart muscle. Her heart is now functioning at about 25%, and her risk of sudden death has greatly increased. For now, she is wearing a portable defibrillator until a permanent one can be installed (December).
She has been at my house for the past week- resting, learning to live with her new "baby", and trying to come to terms with this new normal. Physically, she has been limited for years, but now her limits are even broader. Walking across the room, over exerts her heart. It's crazy. She's been dealing with many emotions this past week, but she's trying hard to stay positive.
What good comes from all this? Well, I'm sure there's more to it than this, but I will tell you that it's extremely motivating for me to keep running, to keep exercising, and to keep eating well. You all know the health issues that I have battled over the past couple of years. This whole time I felt like this was my last chance to "fix my health" and change the course of my life. With the help of my SparkFriends and Spark tools to motivate and encourage me, I have become a newer, healthier person. I don't see heart disease and high blood pressure cutting my life short. I see a woman who really can do anything she sets her mind to (running, never would have believed that one about myself).
I know I'm probably rambling. Thank you for listening. Please do remember us in your prayers. I don't know what the next months will hold for Mom, but I know that I am so very grateful that my own health is under control so that I can be there for her and the rest of my family.
Take Care. Keep on Sparking!