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I will not be moved....

Sunday, September 18, 2011

"I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved...

And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I've worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved"...

I was listening to the song "I Will Not Be Moved" by Natalie Grant this morning. I've always liked it but today it had new meaning for me. Once again, I was disappointed by the numbers on the scale...another week with no loss. I'm so close to that first 100 lb loss but it stays just out of my reach...making me struggle to stay true to this journey. I was sitting here earlier thinking the same tired thoughts that have made me stray before..."Why am I even trying? What's the use...I always fail..." Then the song came on and I realized something....I'm trying because I'm worth it...I'm worth the effort! I might not lose every week and I might only lose a little at a time....but look how far I've come! One year ago, I was 95.6 lbs heavier. I couldn't walk from the living room to my bedroom without being out of breath. I struggled to do everyday chores...walking to go shopping with my daughters was something to dread instead of enjoying our time together.
Look at me now! My husband asked me the other day if I realized how much more active I was....seems like I'm always on the go...either to the gym for water aerobics or working out, or out with my daughters and granddaughters....or going to antique shops with my husband. I love this life now and I know it will only get better as long as I stay on course and keep doing what it takes to get healthier. I'm no longer willing to short change my self and my family. This is the only life I have and I deserve to give it my best effort. So....I might lose slower than some might take me several years to get where I want to be...but I'm ok with that now. My life will still have chaos and struggles and I'm sure I'll still have days when I wonder if it's worth it, but now I'll just turn up the volume, let the song play loud and sing along..."I will stumble, I will fall down....but I will NOT be moved..."
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  • SKY2012
    Good morning and I am looking forward to our Spring Biggest Loser Team Challenge together, yeh!!!!!!!!! emoticon
    2262 days ago
    I love that song, too! AWESOME encouragement. Congratulations on all the changes you've made! It's those wonderful little differences that keep adding up and equal ONE HEALTHY LIFE. You're DOing it! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2413 days ago
    What a marvelous, uplifting, encouraging blog this is! You are such an amazing woman, twinny, I hope you truly realize that. You are SOOOOOOO worth it!!!

    2435 days ago
  • SUSSA1222
    Hang in there. You can do it! Love that song! It is very inspiring and so are you!
    2436 days ago
    That's so amazing! What a journey. You WILL make it. Kudos to you for being patient.
    2437 days ago
    You go girl!
    2437 days ago
  • _KATHY
    emoticon Great blog. You really are an inspiration.
    2437 days ago
    that is sooo amazing. I was very inspired today reading this blog. You have come a lonnnnnng way baby, and it doesnt matter how long it takes to get that 100, just keep doing your thang... and to be able to have the life you do now? that is priceless. Thanks for reminding me of all the things I can do now that I couldnt 70 pounds ago. I needed this. Jan
    2437 days ago
    I think many of us can relate to this and I'm proud of you for hanging in there! You've done wonderful and yes, we will all get to the end of this journey and some of us will take longer, but it's the journey that counts. Good for you!
    2437 days ago
    Like you, I struggle with motivation when the scale doesn't give me the answer I'm looking for. Like your husband, mine reminds me of how far I've come and how much I have gained since I started this journey. And like our lives, it's about the journey and serving God not the weight on the pesky scale. Hang in there!

    2437 days ago
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