I have been really busy with the start of another school year and a wedding to pull off...both things have come and gone and both were smooth sailing!
Now my attention turns once again to my health, my weight...Me. Everywhere you turn, there is another promise of X number of pounds that could be lost if you just bought this product. I see people in my life who have had the gastric bypass surgery, lap bands, etc...None of the afore mentioned items are choices for me. I just want to be healthy and possibly lose a few pounds in the process.
So like so many times before, I began calculating and searching for the answer that seems to always allude me.
Yesterday, my morning bible reading started off like this: "The reason most of our systems (I took that mean diet systems) aren't working is because they are BIG on systems and small on belief." OK then, I know I need to rely on God for this issue in my life. I have read Thin Within and attempted to eat less and pray more. I read Made to Crave...as I write all this, I am reminded of something in the Thin Within book...it goes something like this: How many self help books can you read? How many do you think God wants you to read? I can read about changing all I like, no change will come unless I am ready to pick up my cross, PRAY and change with the grace of God. I know all that, yet I am not releasing pounds. NO matter what I do or what I eat or what I don't eat, change does not seem to come in the form of a smaller me.
Another thought hits me: I am 50 going through menopause. My body is changing. Time. Maybe time is what I need. I don't know it has been 19 years since I was at my goal weight. Time doesn't seem like the answer either. I throw up my hands. I give.
Today my bible reading started out like this:
Making Healthy Choices. Now God has my attention! two days in a row...there is no mistaking He is talking directly to me!
"Look at your dinner plate, and ask if what you are about to eat is mostly what God created for you? Don't view eating as a secular event that has nothing to do with your relationship with God. Don't forget that God put Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden and told them what they could eat. If eating had nothing to do with their walk with Him, He probably would not have mentioned food." (New Day, New You by Joyce Meyer)
So, now what I am going to do to? I am going to throw my hands up in prayer. I am going to dedicate my exercise sessions to Him. I am going to critically rate the food on my plate. I am going to start each meal with God. I am going to let Him guide me and I am going to lay my worries on the throne and leave them there. I am going to BELIEVE.